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07-04-2014, 07:53 PM
A Queen, she had become a ruler while he was gone. Had built herself a pack, what some believed to be a family - so many wolves, it was not something that he had experienced for long but he knew the support it gave to a rogue during winter. She had that of her own, and it was with that answer, that he knew she no longer needed him at her side. Still, he wanted a place beside her, because without her he found himself quite empty. Devoid of Sibelle, he was just less... but without him, she was a matriarch, a ruler - a queen.
He was proud of her, but now was not the time.
Her question would be a single word, but it was enough. Why had he gone - what reason could he have had to vanish for so long. The answer was one he was not ashamed of, as Silana was a part of him in a similar way the russet woman was but... but not in the same way. Silana was family, she was the same as he - a phantom, that would always wander in and out of his life the way he did others. Yet Sibelle was a natural part of him, the only lupine that he had met and wanted to know, that he cared for and craved. "I lost Silana again, when she left I searched, and vhen I couldn't find her I... vaited." It was the honest truth. "I don't think she is coming back zis time." He would not leave in search of her again, not even if she were to return to his side and vanish once more.
"I thought of you constantly vhile avay, I never once abandoned you, Sibelle." It was not an act of abandonment, not in his mind. "Returning to you, vas always vat I 'ad in mind, but I shouldn't have left in the first place. Especially vithout telling you... for that I ask your forgiveness." He would meet her eyes for these last few words, gathering resolve as he tried to express himself. "I missed you dearly, Dame Roux." His smile was not forced - as he was happy to see her for the first time in too long, but it hurt - just a pin prick, because it did not seem she felt the same way. If she did not forgive him, he would not force his presence any longer - but he held hope that she would accept him back, and then he could finally brush against her side like he had longed to all while he had not.
He was proud of her, but now was not the time.
Her question would be a single word, but it was enough. Why had he gone - what reason could he have had to vanish for so long. The answer was one he was not ashamed of, as Silana was a part of him in a similar way the russet woman was but... but not in the same way. Silana was family, she was the same as he - a phantom, that would always wander in and out of his life the way he did others. Yet Sibelle was a natural part of him, the only lupine that he had met and wanted to know, that he cared for and craved. "I lost Silana again, when she left I searched, and vhen I couldn't find her I... vaited." It was the honest truth. "I don't think she is coming back zis time." He would not leave in search of her again, not even if she were to return to his side and vanish once more.
"I thought of you constantly vhile avay, I never once abandoned you, Sibelle." It was not an act of abandonment, not in his mind. "Returning to you, vas always vat I 'ad in mind, but I shouldn't have left in the first place. Especially vithout telling you... for that I ask your forgiveness." He would meet her eyes for these last few words, gathering resolve as he tried to express himself. "I missed you dearly, Dame Roux." His smile was not forced - as he was happy to see her for the first time in too long, but it hurt - just a pin prick, because it did not seem she felt the same way. If she did not forgive him, he would not force his presence any longer - but he held hope that she would accept him back, and then he could finally brush against her side like he had longed to all while he had not.