NEED SOME TIME TO CLEAR THE HOLE IN MY HEART
She stood as still as a statue. Nose nearly touched the ground, her expression weary. What was she going to do? She needed to get away for a bit. But could she leave? Maybe a short trip would be good. Despite all the questions, her mind was depressingly silent. A sigh would heave her russet sides. Slowly her crown would lift, but only until it was level with her spine. Her gaze would focus outside the border, wondering what could be out there. Perhaps there was something more, somewhere else. A single paw would lift, pulling her closer to the border. Could she do it? Could she leave? Her movements would halt, hesitation evident in her posture.
The ground gave away beneath her feet as her world came tumbling down around her. Aeron had left and returned. Taurig left and returned, and left again. Her own brother had left. She had far too much self esteem to know it was her fault. But now, she had a serious dent in her self esteem. Was she not good enough? Was she lacking in something? Eyes slide close, a single tear rolling down her cheek. She would give herself a hard shake, hoping that she could somehow shake herself free of the pain and confusion she felt. His familiar cologne would fill her nose, causing the russet woman to freeze, muscles tensing beneath her pelt. She would not turn and look at him, she wouldn't even acknowledge his presence in that moment. |