NEED SOME TIME TO CLEAR THE HOLE IN MY HEART

He wasn't finding the right words, he knew he wasn't. There was so etching that he needed to say, something that would carve sense through their confused sadness but he could not find the words and all his attempts where failing. This became more clearly so when Sib would turn and it was clear she intended to leave. The bit would cast one look up at vi, with an expression if dismay and caution, dismay for the hurt he seemed to constantly be causing and caution for any retaliation vi might give, if she might carve out his heart in penance for his sins.



He would allow himself only that one look before he would turn to follow - she may want to be alone and may sent him on his way but for as long as she allowed he would try to find a way to ease her hurt. He lowered his head and his eyes and followed her from the meeting



After meeting:



He would find her standing in solumn silence at their borders with her eyes cast outwards as through already she could imagine crossing its line and racing away into the expanse of the world, never to be seen again. His hear would tighten in his chest and his breath would tumble free from his lips in a silent gasp as he watched herm the idea of losing this friend horrified him and he took another step closer, abide wearily as through approching one poised on a cliff with the intention of tumbling to freedom and death.



She would fall to the ground and the soft taste of salt would touch him fron the essence of her tear. Silently he would sweep paws across the earth until he was beside her and would gently lower his whole body to the earth. If she woukd stand before him vulnerable in her sadness then he too would show no walls. "Is it just I that you would flee? Because I would rather leave myself then tear your from this home" his voice was soft, but this time he would not allow himself the peace of closing his eyes. "I know I have wronged you, and her and been too blind to see or admit it. I've been selfishly wrapped about my own emotions to see it, but I can't lose you because of my folly. I can't. I need you sibelle, my friend who's strengths and pride and beauty I admire. You look out across the border like you might need and perhaps thats the shock I need to wake me. I would rather you carve your pain in my flesh then bare it in your heart any longer. I want to fix this" and so hos long speech would end and his mouth would fall closed. He too looked out across the expanse before them. He didnt think he had ever given a longer speech in his life, but now he wohld say no more unless she wished it.

"Speech"