Swallowing Pride
07-14-2014, 11:51 PM
Walk | Talk | Think She had fallen somewhere along Ebony's border, crying and shaking and succumbing to her potent mixture of feelings. Grief over the terrible way in which everything had unfolded. Fear from the threats and force her husband had used against her. And guilt because the woman she had torn into with words had been the one to come to her defense. Her pride had been stripped from her, forced to suffer humiliation before the one she had been trying to humiliate. It was a new low she had never experienced before, so thorough a humbling that she had lost herself those first few hours after she had run away. It had taken her some time to quiet and even longer for her shock to dissipate, but some hours later she had painfully come to accept what had happened. She had angered Bane. She had all but cursed the woman who had been designated by him to be the godmother of their children, and it had lit a rage inside of him she had never been witness to, particularly never on the receiving end of. His hurtful words and blatant threats still echoed around in her mind, as did the snarling tone of his loud voice, but even more frightening was the lingering feel of him that she had on herself, his larger frame and strength pinning her beneath him, his paw against her muzzle to ensure not a bit of her rose from the ground. How could she ever face him? She had shamed him, as badly as he had humiliated her, and she feared ever seeing that look of distain on him again, wondered dreadfully if it had altered his view of her forever. And, only adding to her shame, it had been Destruction to speak against him, to defend her when she had had nothing good to say to and about her just moments earlier. How the red-eyed woman had found it in her to speak up for Tahlia the vain creature did not know. She had had every right to walk away, to leave the couple's fight between themselves, even draw some sense of satisfaction from seeing the one who slandered her put in her place. As much as it pained her now to admit it, it was just what Tahlia would have done herself. But Destruction had a better heart than that, a kinder grace, and realizing it the humbled wolf was not quite so certain she had deserved the kindness. The night had been a sleepless one, spent alone as Tahlia fought to balance her new found humility with her naturally occurring pride. She knew she needed to apologize to Destruction, to thank her for sticking up for her when no one else could, to mend what she had been so quick to destroy and leave in tatters. But, having never done so before, she knew nothing of what her first step was to be. It would have been so much easier to give up, to write off her relationship with her children's godmother as a lost cause, and at the price of saving face never to speak to her again. But if she had any chance of mending things between herself and Bane then this, showing that she could swallow her pride and do what he had ordered, most importantly on her own terms, would be the first step. Tahlia realized soon after she had made her decision that she had no idea how to find the woman. It was not like she resided within a pack, a stationary arrangement - she had made that clear when she had explained herself - but she could not be deterred by such a lack of information. She intended to find her and started at the cliffs that bordered the river neighboring next to Ebony. She stayed well away from the edge, her gaze searching while she turned her head so that her functioning left eye could make up for her lack of vision in the right. Not within sight, but that in no way meant she was not here. Tahlia raised her muzzle slightly and called to her, her voice quiet to keep it from drifting too close to her home. No one knew she was here, no one had seen her since she had run, but for the moment she wanted it that way. Seating herself to wait, her expression and posture anxious with uncertainty, the only one that she wished to speak with now was the one she most owed an apology. OOC: Gonna set this for a day after the whole kerfuffle on the Ebony border. ;3; They need to be friends again already! |