you took the sun and you waited
09-20-2014, 03:26 PM
The woman felt that just when things started to settle down again things were just... not all there. The storm that seemed to take hold of Alacritia reminded her far too much of the hurricane that cost her eye. Of the night she was separated from Arian... right before she fell ill with the epidemic. Destruction closed his good eye, breathing in and out, as she leaned against a tree. The rains that came in the orchard made it cooler... but soon enough things would truly begin to get colder. That thought had Destruction thinking again. Worrying with all of the changes. Soon... this would be the new home of the family. But Bane... how long did the elder have? He was so gray now... and... Destruction shuddered. The thought of losing him hurt. Perhaps more than it should have. There was no doubt that Destruction still had some feelings for the man. But they were not the same as a mated pair would have. No, her love for him was different than Tahlia's love for him. But Destruction would weep, oh how she would weep when he was lost. She had lost so many over time. It was amazing to the dark woman how she found happiness again with the family. Even met another man that she felt comfortable around. Perhaps moreso than she had even around Aiden. But Destruction felt... something stir. But a loneliness and a bitterness in her heart. If she trusted Deviant, and got close to him, would he not break her heart as well? Would she bear his children, just to have him leave for another woman? To die? Destruction was afraid to love again. Yet she needed to. The woman was not getting younger... and... if she waited much longer it could be too late. Though she needed to make a decision before winter came, Destruction was still hesitant. She would be seven this year... and the year after an elder. But oh how Destruction longed to be a mother. Something she had for the briefest time, in caring for Rohini, in caring for Arian, before their separation. A sigh would leave her, and the large female would limp on through the orchard, taking caution to avoid the other family that lived within. When she had lifted her head, her single orb falling on the flank of the other wolf, Destruction almost wrote her off as a hallucination. As a figment of her imagination, created by longing. Yet, when Des blinked, the other girl was still there. Hesitant. She was hesitant. Her right forepaw would settle on the grass lightly, favored because of the injury she sustained in her alpha fight. The woman would breathe, glancing over her shoulder to where Tahlia, Bane, and the children were. But no... she needed to face them all. Face those she lost... those who might feel she abandoned them... or perhaps it was she who should feel that way. But no, Arian had not. The girl cared for her... the only she could doubt was Aidan at this point. So, with her heart a bit heavy, Destruction would approach. Her ears were lowered, the light in her eye dampened as she neared the girl, slightly off to the left and from behind. She would speak, her voice but a gentle question; "How have you been, Arian?" Speech |