you took the sun and you waited

Arian wouldn't see the woman at first, but she came into her version. Arian knew she wasn't sick enough to be seeing things, or at least she thought so. Her body would immediately react in a way she could have predicted. Her body raised suddenly and toes splayed out into soggy terrain. It wasn't out of anger, but with her heart rate rising she knew she was freaking out even possibly having an anxiety attack. She had left her, arian had left her and even tried to find her but never did. Arian figured things would work out great. Even with her mother epiphron but her nagging fear was scratching at the newly adult healer. Her head lowered as she started to stagger her breathing taking deep breaths before sitting down again.

"Destruction forgive me, the night that it rained I lost your scent. I couldn't find you so I ran away, and...and then I found my uncle. But he....he's gone now. Every time I try to do something right it crumbled around me. And I'm terrified even now. I'm getting attached again, to my pack to my cousin azalea, but what if someone comes to take them away. And I'm not strong enough to protect them." She poured her heart out to the woman she considered as her second mother. Tears falling from her eyes. "I'm sorry, I'm a failure. Everything I do comes down to being torn up. And I'm never strong enough to make sure everyone's alright. You got hurt, and I couldn't do anything." She buried her snout in her paws tail lowered into the orchards plants. She didn't think she would break down like this. Arian never cried, she never had. Wolves who knew her knew this. Even destruction would know, the usually cheerful and bright girl had broken down into tears with all of her hidden fears. All of the weakness that she was terrified of having.