somewhere between unsure & a hundred
09-24-2014, 05:36 PM
((Doubling the M rating for some disturbing imagery in this post!))
There was silence between them and Helios screwed his eyes shut, the worst possible scenarios playing out in his mind. A sigh made him open his eyes once more, focusing on the distance to his left. His wife?s voice spoke again, voice softer. That was almost worse; at least when she had yelling he had known he deserved it, this? he didn?t deserve her sympathy, not right now. Defiance filled him as Natalya?s last words left her lips. Helios forced himself onto his haunches. ?Do you honestly think I planned this?? There was some anger, some hurt in his voice. ?I?ve been fighting it for longer than I care to remember!?
He hunched over himself, his voice ever so soft when he spoke again. ?I wasn?t strong enough, not for you, not for her.? He whispered the last words, cradling it. ?It was like the first time all over again? I panicked.? Images flashed before his eyes, blood brilliant on the snow, a mangled earthy brown paw extended towards him, a small pink under formed shape?
talk, think
There was silence between them and Helios screwed his eyes shut, the worst possible scenarios playing out in his mind. A sigh made him open his eyes once more, focusing on the distance to his left. His wife?s voice spoke again, voice softer. That was almost worse; at least when she had yelling he had known he deserved it, this? he didn?t deserve her sympathy, not right now. Defiance filled him as Natalya?s last words left her lips. Helios forced himself onto his haunches. ?Do you honestly think I planned this?? There was some anger, some hurt in his voice. ?I?ve been fighting it for longer than I care to remember!?
He hunched over himself, his voice ever so soft when he spoke again. ?I wasn?t strong enough, not for you, not for her.? He whispered the last words, cradling it. ?It was like the first time all over again? I panicked.? Images flashed before his eyes, blood brilliant on the snow, a mangled earthy brown paw extended towards him, a small pink under formed shape?
talk, think
