Dance with me tonight

Phoebe let him cradle her against him, listening to his words in wonder while tears continued to fall from her eyes. Some part of her, some shred of her that was still the woman he had met on the beach of that island so long ago, was comforted by the news that he had been searching for her all this time, that he had never abandoned her and that he loved her. So much had happened since that day, so much had changed. Shame swept over her and she felt like even the dirt under her paws was better than she was. Fear gripped her, so terribly afraid that when she spoke what had happened in his absence aloud he would turn and leave again and never look at her the same. But she had to tell him, there was no way around it. Here was no hiding her daughters, there was no hiding her broken pieces.

Oh Conan..." Her voice was thick with tears, the lump in her throat making it hard to speak. "Conan... I-I'm not worthy of you. When I couldn't find you and after my brother left... I broke. I'm broken. My mind snapped and I was with so many brutes... I just wanted to feel loved..." Her eyes were fixed on the ground, too ashamed to look him in the eye, feeling as small as an ant as she spoke. Her tears making darker colored dots in the soil at her forepaws. "I had two daughters and I have no idea who their father is... I don't deserve you, I'm not worthy... I'm tainted and broken and I don't deserve your love..." Her eyes squeezed shut, not wanting to see when he walked away or the look of disgust that was sure to be on his face. That was what she thought she deserved. She couldn't fathom Conan still wanting her after knowing how fragile she really was.



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