Dance with me tonight

It was ridiculous and ludicrous of him to think that things would remain the same after months of being separated, so he wasn't necessarily surprised when Phoebe began to explain what had transpired during his absence. Oh Conan...Conan... I-I'm not worthy of you. When I couldn't find you and after my brother left... I broke. I'm broken. My mind snapped and I was with so many brutes... I just wanted to feel loved...I had two daughters and I have no idea who their father is... I don't deserve you, I'm not worthy... I'm tainted and broken and I don't deserve your love... He pulled away from her, just enough that he could get a good look at her face as she spoke. She had been with others...A bout of rage and jealousy sprang up in the beast's chest at the mention of other men. Other men had come to touch his Phoebe...because he hadn't been there for her. If anything, all of that was his fault. Had he been able to brave the storm and stay at her side, none of this would've ever happened to her. It was all his fault.


As she continued to speak, explaining that she had daughters, Conan didn't balk at her confession. So what if she had children? He would take the girls in and raise them as his own; he would take responsibility of them if Phoebe allowed him too. But what really got Conan was when she called herself broken and undeserving of his love. If anyone of undeserving of anything, it was him. He didn't deserve to have her take him back after he caused all these things happen to her. I love you Phoebe. I love you more than you can imagine and nothing is going to change that, whether you believe it or not. You are the most beautiful woman on this earth, more perfect than anyone I could've ever asked for. He murmured, leaning down to raise her chin with his nose so that he could see the beautiful silver eyes that he had missed so much. I can not deny it pains me to hear that you were with others, but in the end that is because of my own fault. Had I been able to stay with you, none of this would've ever happened to you. If anyone is undeserving of anything, it is I who is undeserving of you for having put you through all of this. I don't know what I can say to ever convince you to forgive me except that I'm here now and I'm not going anywhere. If you will allow me back into your life, I would be willing to be a father to your daughters. I would raise them as my own...with you by my side of course...


Was she too far gone in her own pain to realize that none of this was ever her fault and that it never would be? He sincerely hoped not. He wanted his Phoebe back and he would do everything in his power to bring her back.


"Burn Baby Burn"