What A Beautiful Mess
10-28-2014, 11:04 PM
It was all just so overwhelming - the fact the somebody actually cared. Somebody that actually would mourn her passing and miss her so completely if she were to vanish. Is this the answer to her emptiness? Is this what she had been subconsciously searching for all the while? Somebody to take the challenge to embrace her and to show her that its alright to let somebody else take on some of the weight she carried. Oh, how she needed him. How she yearned for him to always be by her side, but what about the possibility of him leaving? If it were to happen, how would she manage. But she would always have a part of him inside their pups, right? She could hold onto them forever if he were to decide he no longer wanted the challenge? Hold onto the pups? Did she actually want them? She clung tighter to the man, talons sinking into him further. Such thoughts, they were hard to grab hold to. It was like trying to hold onto air as some sort of anchor. And she knew that she loved him, then. She knew that her heart ached to be by him. What made her feel this way? The attention, comfort, or some other unknown reason? But what did it matter. All that mattered was that she loved him, maybe not completely yet, but love him nonetheless. And all it really took was somebody that embraced the challenged with open arms. Maybe he will get a chance to prove the universe wrong? It seemed as if that had already happened. Creating not a moon, but a sun just for her. Her own personal sun to orbit, to depend on, and to keep a warmth in her life. But why do you think I deserve you after all the wrong I have done? After the heartaches I have caused. . . I just don't understand. I will stick around as long as you will have me - have us. Just please don't give up on me. You've not only changed my world, but my universe. You have given me my own personal sun, a reason to want to better myself. You and these pups. Our pups. my actions | my words | my thoughts |