breathe me [helios]

She had feared a response much worse from Helios. She had feared that he would break, that he would be angry or sad and she would have to feel the pain of both of them while doing her best to comfort him. She didn't want to leave her family, she didn't want to leave her pack, and she certainly didn't want to leave her husband to rule alone, but what choice did she have? She was useless to them now. Natalya could barely keep herself going at this point and acting as the driving force behind a pack had become something simply unimaginable. It wasn't that she wouldn't continue to support them, but she no longer had the strength for more than that.

A tiny smile was forced on her lips as a few silent tears fell. "We will call a meeting at the turn of the seasons and... We can tell everyone there." She leaned into his kisses as she spoke, feeling their strength more than ever. Though she was weakening, winter brought her into heat and no illness could quell the desire she felt. If anything, fear increased it. Fear of dying and leaving too little behind. Fear that she had never been good enough as a mother or a leader. Fear that her family would be alone. "Helios," she began, her voice thick as she rose and presented herself to him. "Please, make me forget this for a while."

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