From The Depths Of My Heart

With what's going on, I would like to come clean now. It's nothing bad I swear! xD

For those that don't know, I am TADC21 from a long while back.

I joined Ciroc near the time when we decided to branch off and make our own site, Ala. I remember there was a new discussion on Ciroc that had said if they found anyone involved with our site, they would be band. Now this was 5ever ago so all that stuff has been put behind us, Ciroc is actually a great place, I chilled out there for a bit before coming back here. But us Ala folks thought that was unfair for those that wanted to be own both sites. They were stuck between a rock and a hard place and basically had to pick sides.

Anyways, as Ala grew, we were able to have our site hosted by east-of-paradise. For those that know me, I was constantly having "real life issues" and took like 12 breaks. Anyway, I was back again and I was a low mod that did little things around the site, whatever. Eventually, me and a few others decided that there was a lot of favoritism mainly to the new members or those that certain admins had brought in. I -truly- believe that favoritism was there but now I feel like it was all very immature for the way we acted. Those of us that out up rather rude absence threads (This was when absences were individual threads) were immediately banned from the site and then the cbox. Our absences were deleted and an announcement was made on Ala.

Before I get to that, I would like to include that I remember that I put very rude and "bashing" comments about the site which was all the right to delete my absence post. I specifically said some rude things about Nyx, all that I can't remember anything about just that they were very rude and uncalled for. Nyx was actually the staffer I told the truth to when I came back as Chrono, and I can't be more sorry about whatever I said about her.

An announcement was put up on Ala that stated if anyone was involved in our site, they would be banned. This very specifically hurt me and the members that left because we remembered the same thing happened with the originals and Ciroc.

Eventually I let Ala go, and moved on with our new site that died rather quickly. Eventually I left and took a break from roleplaying altogether. I ended up going to Ciroc months later and stayed there for about a month. Then I stopped RPG again until one day after I moved into my grandmother's house in May of last year, and thought about how I used to roleplay on Alacritis. So I decided to take a look around and see what had changed and what hadn't. As you can see I ended up joining with the intention of eventually telling a staffer who I was.

I realized that I could not fit in anywhere else but Ala. Alacritis was truly the best RPG site for me. Though my characters reflect off my moods or what I'm going through, life has not slowed down my writing. Ala has became my own kind of sanctuary, especially since I let go of all my friends. To me, there is no other place like Ala. I've grown up enough in the year I wasn't here to see past cbox "ignoring" problem and now I don't see anymore of the favoritism I used to.

Even though this is basically my social life, Ala is really just a game that I have fun on. I've picked up some of you wonderful guys along the way!

I can't be anymore sorry for anything I said as Tad, but really, Chrono is a new developed person ;D I'm glad I was able to come back and start over!

I'd also like to state something else from after I rejoined.

There was an announcement about the staff not sharing specific things or something weird like that. I would have to hunt it down but I really don't feel like it right now xD There is a reason we have Staff, it's like our government xD They don't have to tell us everything, it's not like a terrorist can implant a bomb into the site coding and make our houses explode. Staff should have the right to say as much as they feel comfortable about. None of the members should feel uncomfortable that they are hiding something, it can't be anything serious enough that our lives are at stake!

I decided to make this because I felt the need to share who I really am, and how I really feel about Ala. After all the crap I feel like I went through, it was really just me acting immature. Now I know there is no place like Ala and I love you all! You are like my family!