Neither of the almost twins spoke after that, instead they held each other close and as she felt Rhythm shake and cry she struggled to hold in her own tears. She didn't want to weep, she could hardly bare to give in to that weakness, afraid that should she collapse then and let it all out she would never again manage to pull herself together, that she would forever after be a mess of regret and loss.
Holding her sister close, and being in her sisters arms in return made her thoughts turn to Shai, of what he would think of the fate of her – their – stillborn sons, if he would hold her close and allow her to let out the sorrow. She pushed back the thought, knowing his arms where out of reach and that it was a comfort she could not ask for, which seemed only to make the growing sadness worse. Her breath came in little gasps, through her eyes stayed dry as she held her sweet sister close.
