I ain't tellin' you no lie
02-05-2015, 11:13 AM
It had been a struggle for her in the past to keep from running away in the face of adversity. It wasn't much easier now except for the fact that she had to stay. Her new post as monarch kept her paws within the Pantheon borders. She wanted to get as far away from these terrifying feelings and possibilities. She wanted to hide from everything, from this responsibility, from Natalya's sickness, from the heart-pounding emotions that roared through her every time she looked at Conan. Out there things were easy. Out there she wasn't herself. She sighed and padded aimlessly through the Estuary, having just finished a patrol around Pantheon's borders. It was a habit that she had forced herself to take on, going through the motions of what she thought an alpha was supposed to do. Honestly she didn't have a clue what she was supposed to be doing, much less if she was doing it correctly. She wanted to ask Helios, but at the same time she didn't want to burden him any more than he already was. Gods knew he had plenty on his plate right now. She moved toward the den she shared with Hera and Desponia. They brightened up her day and made her remember that everything she was doing right now was for them and that they were worth it. She caught a fresh whiff of Desp's scent and she smiled, searching for her dark colored daughter with tired, silver eyes. "Desponia!" she called as she got closer. "Are you here, darling?" |