These voices won't let you leave
It surprised her a little that she even cared. For someone as worthless as she was, Arian didn't feel worthy of any source of compassion. Her crystal eyes stared at the sand for a moment, as the woman spoke more and more her ears would flick. Her bright mind still intact even if her spirit was not. Of course she had left the fiori lands to get some sort of sense of herself probably. She found herself backing up to the same traumatic memories. Her body felt disgusting, so pure and in the end the darkness controlled her heart. "It doesn't matter, a waste of space needs to be taken control of." Arian muttered. "I gave into sin, I lost everything. That woman, Morgana, stole my heart and I gave her my throne. Only for her to throw it away, throw it in the trash like it was nothing. And then.....they took us away. Me and Vereux...... oh vereux, he didn't deserve my sisters scolding him. We were held against our will and she told him he was never to see his love or his children again and....and he took care of me when no one else would. Those caves destruction those muddy caves they were terrifying they were dark." she shivered at the thought panting a little as her eyes looked up at the other.
"I can't..... make decisions on my own, its impossible. Improbable, if left to my own devices I become a sinful monster full of lust. But, if I keep losing everything, whats the point. My mother, she's an alphess again I....I'm with her but, they all hate me I just know it. I drag them down, I can't do anything I can't run, I can't hunt, I can't fight. Why....." Arian snapped her jaw shut crying lowering it into the sand a little bit. |