Who am I to you?
Did him coming back to his home land fuck things up so badly? Why couldn't they just forget about him instead of worry about what went on. Though Vereux wouldn't voice these things out loud, he knew, if he had been strong enough, if he had the strength to escape being enslaved they wouldn't be there. But, only Bacc knew about that. He hadn't wanted to leave, he'd never just up and leave a family like that. Though, Amalia seemed to think he had. He wanted to scream so loud at the top of his lungs his frustration and how the world turned its back on him exactly as his mother and father had. It came to his realization, what about these boys, was he doing the same thing his father had done. No, he cared about his children, all Isardis had cared about was reproducing to the point where his gene's could surpass everyone, he was selfish.
Vereux would stay calm in front of Vitus, his ears flicking a bit. “I was born here, that's why I'm back. I didn't leave because I wanted to before so I fought with all my strength to return to my home” he would explain clearly. “Your mother is my sister and that is how it will stay because she is with Amalia now. Hate me or like me Athena said she would be bringing you boys to visit if you wished but it's up to you what you want to do.” maybe the boy didn't understand but he was young. It wasn't his fault. “Don't you ever blame yourself Vitus, and don't let anyone hurt your family. I'm going to tell you what I told Bacchus, get strong so that you aren't weak enough for someone to take control of your life. Listen to me don't listen to me it's up to you but I love all of you I'd die if that was really what all of you wanted.” he shook his head. “Don't speak if it's hard, I spent many days in silence in a dark cave filled with rats, I'm used to being ignored and kicked around by now.” Vereux worried greatly for this family. But ultimately it was his nephews and sons that seemed to get the brunt of it and everyone of them was different.
“Why am I even telling this to a child, I was never cut out to be a father, I'm a horrible wolf for being taken away from my home in the first place.” he muttered small tears falling from his eyes. He turned around, he was fighting with himself so hard while still trying to make amends with his family. And the sickening realization was, he couldn't make it happen with all of them. In the end he was destined to fail, all because he was one of many. He was part of the origonal Armada litter and yet he and Athena even his brother Genesis got the short end of the stick.
“I speak” |