all those things left unsaid
04-06-2013, 11:57 AM
| Aislyn |
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She didn't know what the hell to do. Mind swirled into new directions, thoughts wandering into new scenarios. She could feel tuffs of fur between her jaws, each strand tickling her toungue as she spat the wad out. She didn't like this feeling, the feeling this man put inside her. She wasn't one to strike, yet here she was, tearing fur off his hide. What about him drove her so mad? Why did she feel a burning passion within her every time he came around, whether it was a good, or bad, feeling? She just couldn't figure it out. The ivory dame inhaled deeply through her nose, sucking up all the tears and snot that had been formed from her sadness. No, she was stronger than this. She wouldn't let hormones win this time, no, not today. She couldn't let him see the pain she felt inside. She listened to him speak. He apologized again, then proposed a deal. He would take any punishment she threw at him? What did he think she was, some dictator? She couldn't punish him, he had honestly done nothing wrong. He had answered her call, had done the one thing she needed, then left. What did she expect, to fall in love? It was an idiotic idea. She honestly had no reason to be mad, yes they felt sparks, but who was to say it would go any where? No one. Her mind considered all the possible punishments that she could inflict upon him. Hurt him? Maim him? Emotionally destroy him? Banish him from their pup? Every option seemed so harsh, so brutal. So what could she possibly do? Nothing. There was no punishment, there was nothing she could do that would change the past. "I won't punish you Friction, you don't deserve it. I was an idiot for thinking there was something between us. Why should I be mad at you? I had called you for one thing, and when ya came, I thought there was more to our story. Was I wrong? Possibly. Do I want to be wrong? Dunno now. And you speak of my pack like it is some unforgiving place. I told you from the beginning, you would be allowed to see your child, whether that was by ma side within Valhalla or not." She paused for a moment, listening to his next statement. Had he forgotten who she was? She would have never been able to leave with him, especially not while she was involved with Cairo. She shook her head, icy gaze lifting to meet his own. "Have you forgotten who I am Friction? I am the beta here, I've even been the alpha for a short time. This is my home, my forever home. I might have been an outcast in the beginning, but now, this is my family. No man would take me away from that. How dare you even consider taking me away from here. I've lived the loner life, I've been on my own for over two years. Valhalla took me in even though I had no potential, no friends, no companions. I hadn't talked to another soul in over a year, yet Cairo took me in with open arms. Can you find that out there Friction? Because I've searched, so please, tell me if I was doing something wrong during those years before I came across these borders." She paused for a quick second, letting that information sink in. If you never want me to feel this way, then why did you come back? Why continue to screw with my emotions? You either want me, or you don't want me." She glared daggers at him, ears folded flat against her skull. He went on, saying he would never leave her side if she allowed it. Her ears perked forward. So, he did want her after-all? Her eyes closed as she thought all this over. She tried for a moment to envision them together. Then she saw it; him, her. Their child. The happy little trio enjoying autumns last breath of warmth. Orange and yellow leaves falling to the forest floor around them as she watched their baby chase them, crunching them with his or her paws when he or she caught them. The ivory dame would smile and look toward her lover, Friction, who would be sitting close enough so she could lean against his large frame. And she would. She would allow him to envelope her with his warmth as they laid outside the mouth of their den, carefully watching their only child. Whether they would be mates she didn't know. Everything would be perfect... Or would it? She snapped back into reality, eyes opening to meet Frictions. She wanted it, she wanted to vision to be a reality. She needed it. Time was creeping up on her fast, before she knew it she would be 13 years old and on her death bed. A heavy sigh built up inside her and was released. "Come, Friction. If you're ready to commit, then join me, here, in Valhalla. But, know this; if you chose to reside here this will be your forever home. You will not leave the borders without me, nor will you leave the pack and become a loner. Period. You will stay with me in my den and stand by me as my... well... boyfriend I suppose. Maybe sometime in the future there could be something more? But for now, I will accept you back into my life, and we will see where it goes." She turned away from him. She was anxious to get back to her den, she was feeling a bit under the weather and very tired. A nice nap was in order. Her head swung back as she looked at him, head motioning him to follow her. -Exit and end unless stopped- |
OOC: We can start another thread where they begin to fall in love :D
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