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Cold, cold and dark... Fitting, she thought, somewhere disconnected from the sodden, slim body that rocked against the snow-covered sand with each incoming wave. Cold water lapped at aching bones, and she felt herself being sucked into it, back... Not yet! She could have howled, but she was still caught somewhere in the in-between. Eulogy didn’t want to go back! There was nothing but struggle and strife. Hadn’t she payed enough? How much more suffering would she have to endure before she could finally be free of it?

An uncharacteristic flash of anger warmed her body just enough for her to finally find her way home, light beating at the back of her lids, nostrils flaring before the coughing started, wracking her whole body as weak limbs struggled to drag her mortal prison from the grasp of the sea, gasping, spluttering, and vomiting the salty brine from her airways. There was a little fight in her yet. Enough to throw herself into the ocean in the first place.

She was too cold to shiver, dark back legs and tail still kissed by salt water as it came in and out. Was the tide at it’s peak or would it come swallow her yet? She was too tired and weak to haul herself any further, but at least the air seemed familiar here. Had she finally made it? Would it matter?

Darkness was touching the edge of her sight again, and she allowed her eyes to close. For just a moment...

"speech".

for our souls in the ocean together will be

The white coated wolf herself had her mind in so many worries, in so many fears and sadness, she was slowly feeling her world was falling. Only Cassi kept her from falling deep in a cage of darkness to falling back inside the blackness that used to be all she found in her life, all she was embraced with. Eyes of green were distant, emotionless as she felt scared, as she felt in a dead end. She closed her eyes for some instants as she walked parallel to the breaking waves. After the chaotic change of her pack, she has been taking longer to do her herbal foraging and just trying to calm down. She was of course always there for Casso as he was now the only one she could trust in the home that didnt felt like one anymore, they were technically prisoners, caged against their will. How did Ignis change so much? What happened to the wolf she someday met helping her? Did he have Cassos' problem? She remembered when her mate explained to her what his family had to suffer from generation to generation, and Ignis as far as she knew was Casso's brother. So she could only think he did. The wolf of white coat kept with her walk, feeling her mind away from the real world, walking in an automatic way. But then she managed to react on time to see another wolf in the distance, part of her screamed, begged her to turn and leave. But the other side of her told her to perhaps start a conversation? Could she do that? Ears pinned and tail tucked she approached until she made a stop in a few feet from the other female by her right. There she tried her best to have something to say but feeling a knot in her chords. "H...hiii.." "Speak"