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Mixed Feelings



Silent I

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11-01-2013, 01:52 AM
Silent



The black female was dealing with silent turmoil. She had found out through conversations around the pack that Bronze had been taken as prisoner by Glaciem. It was the price to be paid in the war for defending Valhalla and it ripped her soul into pieces. The pain she felt from losing her husband mixed with the anger of the enemy from taking him and the anxiety of possibly never seeing him again. In short, Silent was an emotional mess.
She had asked Aeil and Dragon to look after her children. Her niece had obliged to the favor and went off with the small group to teach them the ways of hunting. She knew that they were in good paws and that was one less thing to worry about. Black paws paced the outside of her den, making patterns in the dirt where she had previously stepped. Silent didn't know what to do. She had to talk to someone - anyone - about what she was feeling. After the last turn, she let out a horrified scream, a yell that made the remaining birds leave the nearby trees. Tears began to fall and she crumpled to the ground with her head in her paws. Without Bronze, she was only halfway whole.









Loccian

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11-01-2013, 02:07 AM
Loccian

Not knowing was killing the woman, would the men sent to Vahlhalla be okay, would they come back severely wounded, would they even come back at all? Loccian had been taking a walk, trying to find some herbs that would keep her calm, relax her body and mind. The refugees were taken care of, a place made for them to stay, and the wounded treated, she had time to herself. When she finally came to a stop she found a good plant at her paws, it would slow her racing heart, deal with the nerves and trembling. Quickly she would grab it in her jaws, ripping out a few branches, chewing them up and wallowing. It would take a few minutes for them to take effect.

Suddenly the Ambassador jumped at a scream from nearby, the sound of frightened birds and beating wings going over her head. It sounded familiar but at the same time it didn't, somebody within the Kingdom, but was it one of her members or one of the Valhallans? It didn't matter who it was, all she knew was that it was close and seemed like it needed somebody.

Off she went, not at a full out run but moving at a decent paced jog. Ears were up and alert, grey orbs scanning the range, looking for whoever made that sound. Within minutes she would find it, a black mass of fur laying on the ground, but near the den of a family... Bronze's. Loccian would slow down to a walk, approaching cautiously, stretching out her neck, grey orbs looking down at the wolf, Silent. Was she okay? "Excuse me, are you okay Lady Silent?" She would ask softly, not wanting to get too close and invade the woman's personal space.


"normal.
talk.
think.
you."

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Silent I

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11-01-2013, 02:26 AM
Silent


Loccian's words broke through the current streams that were rolling down Silent's face. She looked up from the ground, emeralds usually clear now tinged with tears and looking like glass windows during a rainstorm. Her facial fur was matted and her ears flattened against her head. Silent's body trembled and she struggled to answer the Healer's question. "N-n-no..I am not," was all she could get out before the tears continued to flow.
She looked back to the ground as she started to stand up, head hanging in sadness from the thoughts running through her majestic cranium. "Bronze was taken prisoner, Lady Loccian," softly came from her black lips. "He was in a fight, apparently they lost, and now he belongs to them." Her voice had slowly risen in sound, anger becoming present in the words and what she emphasized. "Those goddamn Glaciems took my husband and there is nothing I can do about it!" She began to pace again, ears still flatly pinned to her skull. Her lengths were slow and heavy as her head continued to hang. "Their dumbass leader and his horrible pride in control of his actions -- IT'S ALL HIS FAULT! If it wasn't for him, none of this would have happened and Bronze would be here!" Tones broke again and she started to have angry tears forming. Both emotions combined and she let them out in the air. "What am I going to do?! What will happen to my children?! What do I say?..." Silent's breaths became deeper and slower, showing the anger that still burned in her chest. "Those horrible wolves...do they have any idea what they have done to the families of those they have taken?!"










Loccian

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11-02-2013, 02:02 PM
Loccian

She looked like a mess, the usual beautiful was now looking up at Loccian with tear filled eyes, the fur around her face matted, ears back, body trembling and seeming to struggle to answer her question. Did something happen to one of her children? Was she okay? What was making her act in such a way? Grey orbs would watch the woman look to the ground trying to stand back up before dumping the news on her.

?Bronze was taken prisoner, Lady Loccian, He was in a fight, apparently they lost, and now he belongs to them." Ears would drop, a look of disbelief crossing the woman as she just stared off, past Silent. It couldn't be possible, how dare they take him, what nerve! The emotions bubbling within her, anger, sadness, worry, fear, and so much more. Seracia sent their warriors to assist, not to be in the front lines, what the hell had happened?! She began to grow angry with the woman, she would have liked to think for more reason since two people she cared deeply about had gone there and one was claimed, but Silent had children with Bronze and she was no longer in her prime.

The grey woman would finally snap out of it at the angry mother's voice, quickly shaking her head, listening to her, watching her pace. There wasn't much she could do to calm the woman, words would help a tiny bit but the anger and sadness would still be there. Slowly she would close her eyes, taking in a long, deep but shaky breath before reopening them. She would take a hesitant step forward, trying to stand before the dark woman and brush her neck against her in a gentle manner. ?This is very.... horrible news, I'm so sorry Silent.? She would remain there a few few seconds before pulling away, ears still back but a sadness had made it's way onto her face, her grey orbs swirling with a coldness.

There was still so many emotions swirling around within her, ones she wanted to release but felt it would be awkward to do so in front of the woman who was Bronze's mate. Jaws would clench as she turned her head to the side, her own eyes starting to water, but not only for the fate of Bronze... she had not heard anything about her brother... had he been claimed... was he even alive over there? Her breaths would start to become heavy, the idea of him possibly being gone starting to effect her, being alone again...

?I... if anything happens to him, I will help with the children Miss. It would be an honor, bringing a man like him here and then helping with his children...? She would look to the woman, hoping she would have calmed down a bit more by now. "He is strong, and we will get him back, I promise you." Her voice would grow more serious, but it was shaky, eyes still watery. She didn't wanna shift this to her own brother, no, she needed to help the Lady with this horrible news... even if it was hurting her on the inside.


"normal.
talk.
think.
you."

Awesome table by Briena <3



Silent I

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11-04-2013, 03:37 AM






The touch of Loccian's gentle neck graze made Silent's body quiver. Anger still burned in her chest and moved its way down to her stomach, causing her muscles to clench as a result. Her eyes closed hard and she felt her ears flatten against her cranium. Silent moved to return the neck graze to Loccian, slowly calming down and cooling from the adrenaline rush. Tears anew began to fall down her cheeks in small streams, making new lines in the slowly drying fur. She had never had so many emotional changes in a day, let alone within five minutes. The thought only made her want to curl in a ball and disappear.
Loccian's kind words broke through the cascading waterfall of different feelings, making Silent look at her blearily. Her Ambassador was offering to help look after the pups until Bronze returned...it was the first nice thing she had heard outside of her family members all day. Sniffling, Silent blinked the current tears away and she slowly inhaled as she focused on the gray female beside her. "Th-thank you..." She stuttered, pressing her eyes closed to push the remaining tears out of her eyes. "I sure hope so, Loccian...our warriors only went to help and they ended up being taken as prizes..." Emerald green opts opened and with her broken heart, she looked at Loccian. "I know we don't spend much time together or know each other as well as you know Bronze, but your company and offer to help is gratefully appreciated..." Her gaze then wandered over Loccian's back to the den where her pups woke up every morning. "What...am I going to tell them? I never expected something like this to happen."







"talking"



Loccian

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11-05-2013, 11:31 AM
Loccian

It would been incredible honor, even with the small events that happened between the two, Loccian still wanted to help the woman and her family out. She hated being in a downer, and seeing others in one made the urge to wanting to help come out even more. She would silently give a nod of her head when the older woman thanked her, hurt by the condition the woman was in because of this idiotic war. A soft sigh would slip from her lips as Silent bought up the fact she knew too well, their warriors and only healer had gone to offer help, and only two of them had been claimed as prisoners. It was most disappointing.

Ears would perk up as she continued speaking, bringing up how they didn't know each other too well like her and Bronze, but her company and offer to help was gratefully appreciated. It would be the first thing to make a small smile form, but it would only last a few seconds before disappearing at Silent's question on what she would tell her children. In all honestly, she had no idea. The aging Ambassador never had children, and the only one she adopted had been brutally murdered right on the Kingdom's border.

?Tell them half the truth.? She would say softly, giving a slow shake of her head, gray orbs refocusing on the woman. Yes, half the truth, the children were around six months old right about now, they should be able to understand what their mother told them. ?Tell them that Bronze will not be home right away, that something happened but he will be okay.? It seemed good enough, not too much and not too little. Loccian didn't know what the children were like, didn't really spend too much time with them sine they seemed to enjoy being around their family so she had to guess what they would do one Silent told them. ?It's best not to worry them.? She would add softly.


"normal.
talk.
think.
you."

Awesome table by Briena <3



Silent I

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11-14-2013, 12:40 AM
Silent




Through the storm that was raging in her head and heart, Loccian's words reached the inner eye of it all. Silent's beating core was beginning to slow down, unraveling from the high she had been as a result of the increase of adrenalin in her body. Loccian told her to be halfway honest with her children about Bronze's situation and that worrying them would probably not be the best idea. Her emerald green eyes closed tightly at the advice and slowly, Silent lowered her haunches to the ground. She was too old to be doing this stressful dance.
Even though she was nine years old, Silent didn't let it bother her too much. She vaguely remembered the way her mother acted at nine years old, and a smile flickered across her ebony face. Split was definitely the wolf she wished to be, but some wishes weren't meant to come true... Immediately, the memory vanished and Silent's head rose to look at Loccian. The Ambassador had been the one who almost had Bronze's heart before she returned, so she knew that the news of his capture would still affect her. Silent pushed this thought out as well and with a heavy heart, softly spoke. "I will do my best to tell them, Loccian..." She sighed and looked down at her front black paws, wet from the tears that had spilled on the ground. "I have never had to tell any of my children something so heartbreaking...The first time Bronze and I ever fell apart, I only had to tell my young ones that their papa would be gone for awhile, but they could still see him whenever they wanted...It was so vague, and they didn't worry about him disappearing..." She looked back up to Loccian and gave a half-hearted smile. "I hope our current babies won't be too upset...especially my girls, they have the softest hearts of anyone I have ever met.."










Loccian

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11-15-2013, 03:06 PM
Loccian

Within moments it would seem like Loccian's words would calm the woman down, going from frantic to taking deep breaths. A smile came upon the dark woman's lips, making Loccian give a small smile also. Telling her she would do her best, the Ambassador would give a small nod of her head. She would listen to Silent when she spoke up, explaining that she had never had to tell any of her children something so heartbreaking, that the first time her and Bronze fell apart she had to tell their kids he would be gone for awhile but they could see him whenever.

She would move forward, turning around and taking a seat beside the woman. "You have lovely children miss, I'm sure they will be fine." She would try calming the woman further, wanting to see the sadness melt away. "Ara is doing well in her training, she learns fast. And Faolan also took an interest in some healing." She would add into the conversation, perhaps it would lift Silent's mood, hearing that her daughter was doing very well in the mentoring program and one of her sons also took an interest in the art.


"normal.
talk.
think.
you."

Awesome table by Briena <3



Silent I

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11-19-2013, 02:06 AM





Ara and Faolan... The names of two of her last litter of four reached her weary ears. She listened with rapt attention to what they had been doing with Loccian lately and a watery smile appeared on her face. Silent was deeply proud of all of her children, for they lived their lives the way they wanted to. She didn't expect anything less from the little ones she currently kept under her wing. To know that Faolan and Ara were already showing interest in the art of herbs and their properties was a fine thing indeed.
"That sounds lovely," she softly said, eyes blinking slowly to match Loccian's gaze. "I knew Ara was interested, but Faolan...that is a pleasant surprise." Her tail began to softly sway behind her, moving the leaves that had fallen on the ground in front of her den. "Perhaps they may save lives one day...Oh wouldn't that be wonderful, Loccian?"



"talking"



Loccian

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11-26-2013, 01:45 PM
Loccian

She would give a small nod of her head when Silent finally spoke, ears would swivel to the side to hear the woman better. Noting how it was a surprise to hear Faolan had taken an interest. Indeed, most males preferred to go for warriors. Bringing up them saving lives one day brought a smile to Loccian. "They are wonderful children, they will do great things, and save many lives." It might have sounded like a high expectation but that's just what the woman saw in the children, their potential. Speaking of those two, she wondered how the other children were doing, what were they taking an interest in. "How are Jendai and Mercury doing?"


"normal.
talk.
think.
you."

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Silent I

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11-29-2013, 11:48 PM






The promise that Loccian made about her two children made Silent's smile widen. Even though the sadness was still swirling in her chest, she knew that the babies she shared with Bronze would make names for themselves one day. Her tail lightly tapped at the ground as images of her children growing up formed in her mind. "If they learn everything from you, Loccian, they won't have any trouble."
Ears perked at the question about Jendai and Mercury, causing Silent's heart to skip a couple of beats. "They are hanging in there. Jendai seems sadder than the other babies, but Faolan has been looking after her. Mercury has been sticking by Faolan's side, wanting to learn what he knows and is interested in trying to hunt like their father..." At mentioning Bronze, Silent's ears slightly drooped and a sigh escaped her lips. "Each day, they remind me so much of him..it's hard not to want to hold them close and keep them from growing up."




"talking"



Loccian

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11-30-2013, 03:30 PM
Loccian

To be complimented in such a way, it was an amazing feeling. Bringing up the other children it would seem that Jendai was saddened by the going ons, and Mercury was sticking to the boy's side, wanting to learn to hunt like his father. Bronze, Loccian could see the droop in the woman's ears at the mention of her husband. A light sigh would come from her as she explained that they reminded her so much of him and wanted to just curl around them and keep them from growing up. "It seems like Faolan is stepping up as man of the family." She would chuckle in a joking matter, though it wasn't a very happy conversation, she hoped it would help the woman out, even if it was a little bit.

With a deep breath she would gently bump her shoulder against Silent's. "Try not to worry too much my'lady, Bronze will be okay. And if need be... I will trade myself to bring him and our men back." The last bit came out in a whisper, it had been something she was thinking about for some time now. Why wouldn't they take her instead, Bronze was nearing the end of his life and Pontifex and Themisto was nothing beside the healer being related to the Valhalan's King and the returning Gerhardt. Loccian was the second oldest member of Seracia, the most loyal, surely that would be enough to make Glaciem take her instead.


"normal.
talk.
think.
you."

Awesome table by Briena <3



Silent I

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12-06-2013, 11:41 PM
Silent


The observation Loccian made about her silvery son brought a new smile to Silent's face. Her ebony head rose to face the blue female and she chuckled lightly. "He certainly does seem that, Loccian. I am very proud of him, especially with how he is handling everything. He reminds me of my grandmother Ocean...She was always the one to go to when situations got hectic." Silent's eyes misted over as she thought of the great wolf that had given birth to her mother all those years ago. Ocean was highly thought of by Silent, and she would continue to live on through the hearts of her descendants.
Her tail had started to wag as she remembered days of when she was a pup. "She always made sure I was in good health and spirits, particularly when my first crush found his mate and proceeded to have a family." The memory made her giggle and her emeralds sparkled for a moment. When Loccian reassured her that they would return and she would sacrifice her freedom for the men's, Silent shook her head and had her ears perk. "I don't know if the Glaciem king would have a change of heart, Loccian. From what I have heard, he is ruthless and won't let anyone take what he intends to keep. The men we lost in the war are his trinkets, even though they mean more to us than he would ever understand..." She wrapped her tail around her hind paws as she straightened up to a sitting position. "I will try not to worry about my beloved. He has taken care of himself for so long, I am sure he will be all right. It still hurts to have him away from my side, but if I can get through this, I know he will, too."










Loccian

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12-12-2013, 12:51 AM
Loccian

Loccian would listen to Silent describe her grandmother, Ocean in high regard. It would seem that she was a great woman, someone that would be liked by many. It was a nice thing to hear, that somebody could have such an effect on others. But when the Ambassador brought up trading herself, Silent brought up a good realization. The Ice king would not give away his trinkets, winnings from the war against valhalla which would sadden the grey woman. She just wanted to bring the men back to the people that cared about them. The king in the north was a great trouble. "Your right... hopefully something can be worked out..." With a sigh she would lift her head and look to the sky, listening to what else the dark woman had to say. "Bronze is a tough guy, and he has family... he should be fine will something is done."

-exit loccian-


"normal.
talk.
think.
you."

Awesome table by Briena <3