Uncertainty
06-03-2013, 10:54 PM
It had been a few days now since she had returned to Seracia, having found herself back here without even trying to. It was her legs, they carried her to where ever. As if they had a mind of their own. She was gone for two weeks after the death of her brother, Octavian, having had a huge impact on the small and fragile female. Then it took another two weeks of hard work from Bronze to have the girl gain weight for the Winter, regain her strength and ease her mind. Since he had found her he helped her resist the urge to want to slash at her legs, the cuts having scabbed over and nearly healed, turning into smooth scarred skin.
Snow had begun to fall this cold morning, the black and grey female standing outside of the barn she had made her den in. She stood there, tail hanging behind her, body calm, head pointed up to the sky. Grey orbs watched the white sky drop its flakes, blanketing her body in a thin layer. She was alone, something unusual, for she was usually accompanied by Bronze. The thought of him caused her head to lower, sighing heavily, a small stream of vapor forming around her lips. The male had changed, and what bothered Loccian was that she didn't know why. She barely had enough time to catch him to ask before he was off on a walk.
With a shake of her head the female padded away from the barn, head low, tail flicking behind her. She was not sure what she was doing, but she could not stay in her den much longer, it was driving her nuts. Even with frequent prey being brought to her, the female was still a bit thin, but had enough meat on her to where her ribs were barely visible beneath her flesh. She trembled as she walked, but she tried ignoring it.
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06-10-2013, 12:41 PM
She had awoken late at night, next to a cold body with no warmth. Her brown colored mother was not making a sound, her chest was not rising, nor falling. The silence at first made the pup think that her mother was sleeping, but when her father entered the den. She could feel that something was terribly wrong. The healthy pup looked up at her father and began to press her paws against her mother who was not moving at all. Reficul was confused, she had never experienced something like this before. Her distraught cries would only bring her father much pain though, for the male knew himself he did not have the courage nor the skill to raise a female pup on his own. Both he and his mate had been using all their strength to feed Ref, and they ended up being starving almost themselves. Ref's brown tipped tail flicked as she looked up at her dad. "Why isn't she moving dad?" she shivered as the male picked her up by the scruff. That was how the night went, before the snow had started. Her dad had dragged her away from her loving mother. In the confusion of her cries, they reached the nearest pack by the morning. Ref was terrified, Father had not spoken a word to her, and she knew in the back of her head that her mother wasn't there anymore. It was like the animals she had seen her father bring for her to eat for the first time. How could something have no life in it any longer. What was this foreign concept to her that scared her so much. Something she didn't understand but wanted to even though it hurt her so much. Finally her father set her down at the borders of Seracia.
"DAD, where are you going DAD!" It was cold, and her father did only say one thing to her. "I'm sorry Ref, this way you'll be safe." The male had chosen his daughters life over his selfish wants to raise her himself. As he started to walk away. Ref could do nothing but watch whining and crying out loud. She was being left alone, why? She was so confused. Ref didn't know what to do. The two month old pup covered her eyes with her paws as what seems like hours passed and white flakes began to fall from the sky. The cold, she didn't like it at all. Being alone either, confused and afraid as the distraught pup looked up at the white stuff she knew nothing about. It tasted like frozen water. Her father had told her before when something became too cold it went frozen. Was that what happened to mother, and had father been afraid that would happen to him to so he left her behind. Ref cried out in small barks and howls hoping her father would come back before something bigger came along to gobble her up. She didn't even know why he dropped her off at a random spot. Was there something here supposed to protect her. Ref continued to cry out though, with all the energy she had.
"DAD, where are you going DAD!" It was cold, and her father did only say one thing to her. "I'm sorry Ref, this way you'll be safe." The male had chosen his daughters life over his selfish wants to raise her himself. As he started to walk away. Ref could do nothing but watch whining and crying out loud. She was being left alone, why? She was so confused. Ref didn't know what to do. The two month old pup covered her eyes with her paws as what seems like hours passed and white flakes began to fall from the sky. The cold, she didn't like it at all. Being alone either, confused and afraid as the distraught pup looked up at the white stuff she knew nothing about. It tasted like frozen water. Her father had told her before when something became too cold it went frozen. Was that what happened to mother, and had father been afraid that would happen to him to so he left her behind. Ref cried out in small barks and howls hoping her father would come back before something bigger came along to gobble her up. She didn't even know why he dropped her off at a random spot. Was there something here supposed to protect her. Ref continued to cry out though, with all the energy she had.
06-10-2013, 01:04 PM
She wasn't sure how long she had been out, just walking, had ot of been a few hours at least for when she finally came to a stop her legs were aching. With a heavy sigh she hung her head, sitting back on her haunches, letting the cold of winter brush against her body. Flakes collecting in her fur. Slowly she lifted her head to the sky, storm grey orbs gazing upon the dark clouds that had gathered long ago. It was quiet, something she wasn't sure she liked about Winter. One could hear many things from a farther distance, many things like, the cries of a child.
Ears shot up at it, eyes going wide and dropping from the sky to scan the terrain. It would be difficult to catch her scent with the snow, it didn't linger as long as on earth, just as an annoyance as rain. There it was again. The shewolf pushed herself up quickly, tail lashed behind her, head turning left and right to try and pinpoint where the cries were coming from.
Another cry, got it! Without even thinking about it she was off, paws drumming against the ground, breaking through the thin blanket of snow with ease. She threw herself forward, wanting to reach the pup as soon as possible. There were many predators out there that would love to snatch up a pup, eagles, bears, other wolves. And she was determined to reach it first, to hopefully protect the little thing and get it to safety.
A few minutes passed before she was finally able to spot the pup, sitting on the borders. Quickly Loccian came to a stop, breathing heavily, but before she just threw herself at the pup she scanned the area. There were no signs of predators or what may be the pups parents.
After catching her breath the small wolf moved forward carefully, trying to keep herself calm, to look friendly to the youngster. Hello little one, are you lost? She asked gently, keeping her head low and forming a small smile on her lips. As she got closer she could see the pup was decently taken care of, black pelt with brown here and there. She was a beautiful little thing. She came to a stop, standing just a few feet from the pup.
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06-10-2013, 01:16 PM
Ref ears pulled back the floppy things pulled against her fluffy body. Her bi colored eyes glowed a bit as she came to face another wolf, but she had never encountered another wolf before, just her parents. Lost? What was lost? Ref didn't know as she began to whine silently again and lowered her head. She wasn't sure what was going on. "Mommy and Daddy left me behind." She said simply, hoping the larger creature would understand. There was warmth there, coming off of her fur. Warm like her mother had been, the girl wrapped her tail shivering as she let out another whine. What was she going to do now? What was this feeling she hated so much. She didn't know she was feeling hurt, feeling alone. A feeling she had never been faced with before. "Mom wasn't moving....and Dad brought be here and then left." Ref looked out in the forest, hoping to see some sign of the black wolf. Her eyes hoping just a little more that her nightmare would end soon. Ref wasn't sure what to do, as she lowered her head. She looked up at the other wolf, "You aren't going to hurt me are you?" She asked innocently.
06-10-2013, 01:39 PM
Loccian watched in silence as the pup began to whine, lowering her head when the shewolf had approached. Mommy and Daddy left me behind. Her small voice spoke up, causing Loccian's throat to tighten, eyes go wide. Why, why would parents leave their child out here all alone? Why would they leave her here to be potentially killed by something intent on making her its prey? But then it hit her, maybe they left her because they died? Or maybe they just couldn't support both her and themselves. Poor things.
Seeing the pup shivering made the shewolf want to lay down beside her, curl up in a ball to keep her warm, but she wasn't sure the pup would like being so close to a stranger. Who knew if she even encountered wolves who weren't her parents. Mom wasn't moving... and Dad brought me here and then left. Her heart dropped, her question answered. The mother must have died, and not being able to take care of the pup, the father left her. All she could do was slowly shake her head, her grey eyes looking in the same direction as the pup. She was on her own now.
I will not hurt you little one, never will. She answered her in a gentle tone, taking a few steps forward so that she was standing just in front of the pup before lowering her head to be leveled with hers. What is your name darling? I am Loccian, a friend. Getting a name would be the first step to trying to gain the pup's trust, she just hoped she would cooperate and go with her, and not ask about if her parents would come back.
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think.
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06-10-2013, 01:58 PM
There was slight comfort when she felt the bigger wolf get closer to her. The same warmth she had felt with her mother in these moments. Her eyes moved up to Loccain with promise, she wanted to trust this wolf because she had come to save her from this weird feeling. Why though? Why was she left here? Why had her father left her, and what did you call it when your mother was no longer moving? These questions ran through her head and she wished to ask this wolf them, Loccain. The name. "Loccain.....My name is Reficul...Dad would call me Ref, so you can call me that too if you like." Ref tried to sneak in a smile, maybe it was better not to think of those things. Maybe her father had something more important to attend to. The pain in his eyes when he had seen mom, she knew herself that he was doing this for her.
"Dad was only protecting me.....right?" She asked, that was all she wanted to know. She wanted to know if she had been a burden this entire time, if she should have been thankful for the love she had been given. The small pup waited anxiously for an answer from her new companion. From the new warmth that she felt was being given to her.
"Dad was only protecting me.....right?" She asked, that was all she wanted to know. She wanted to know if she had been a burden this entire time, if she should have been thankful for the love she had been given. The small pup waited anxiously for an answer from her new companion. From the new warmth that she felt was being given to her.
06-10-2013, 02:26 PM
Ears perked up as the pup gave her name, Reficul, it was pretty and unique. Just like her, it fit the pup well. Not only was it Reficul but her father had also called her Ref, and Loccian was able to call her that too. She smiled, leaning over and lightly running her tongue over the pup's ear. You have a pretty name Miss Reficul, your daddy chose well. She spoke gently, a warmth forming in her heart when the child smiled. That was good, it was better to stay happy, to not think about the bad things. Something Loccian should try doing more.
Dad was only protecting me..... right? The pup asked, bringing Loccian to move close to the pup, lowering herself just enough to wrap around her. Yes darling, he did not want you to get sick. He just wants you to be safe.... I will make sure you are safe, so you grow big and strong. She spoke in her ear with a smile, pulling away from the pup and taking a step forward. Your father will be proud of you. She had turned her head, looking over at the pup over her shoulder.
What she said was true. Loccian would help this child, give her food and shelter, and if she is willing, even teach her the art of healing. And if Ref wanted to learn how to hunt and fight, then she was sure Pontifex would not mind teaching her such skills. The more she thought about it, the more the warmth within her body began to spread. Perhaps this was what she needed to turn her life around, to ease the pain inflicted on her mind from her brothers death. This child, and Loccian, would both begin a new life. If she would allow her to take of her of course, to become her new mother.
Would you like to come with me Reficul? You will be safe as long as you stay by my side. She asked, still smiling with her tail swaying behind her. The snow had begun to come down harder, in bigger flakes. Within minutes the wind would pick up, the blanket of snow thickening until it reached her chest. They would need to hurry if they wanted to escape it.
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06-10-2013, 04:26 PM
It was warm here, and it was nice. Ref liked this very much to be beside Loccain cuddled like so. She wagged her tail in a small tempo as she heard her words. So, this girl would raise her, just like her mother would have? Ref laughed a little bit, so she wasn't going to bother her parents anymore that was good. It still hurt, but it was good. "We'll get too cold if we stay out here right? You promised to protect me and raise me, then I'll hold you up to that promise." Ref smiled and gave a giggle. She swore she wouldn't be a bother to anyone anymore, she would make the best of everything and become stronger. She didn't know how but she would.
06-10-2013, 05:02 PM
She could not help but chuckle at the pup, her mood had lifted quite quickly, faster than Loccian had expected. It was good, perhaps she was just moving on, and wouldn't linger on the past. She would make sure to fuel this, give her a reason to keep moving on. To become strong. With her voice the shewolf gave a nod of her head, smiling. If we stay then we will become cold, still as stone. If we hurry then I can give you a warm place to sleep, and maybe catch something for you to eat before the wind picks up. With a swing of her tail, motioning the pup to follow, the woman was off. Paws carried her forward, a slow but steady pace for the pup to keep up.
--SKIP TO BARN DEN, LOCCIAN IS RETURNING AFTER GOING OUT FOR FOOD--
After bringing Ref to her den, Loccian set out to bring a meal for the pup. IT took some time but she managed to come back within thirty minutes, carrying a rabbit and bird in her jaws. Panting lightly the shewolf approached, tail swaying behind her, squeezing through a hole in the wall. She moved down the barn, passing a few empty stalls before finally coming to a stop at hers, full of herbs on two of the three walls, the pup laying in the corner furthest from the entrance.
You get to choose. She said after setting the dead animals down before the pup, taking a step back and smiling, waiting for her to choose. Even if she seemed decently fed, Loccian wanted her to choose what she wanted, hopefully choosing the large squirrel. After your meal you should take a nap, I will have to tell my King about you, but I will be right here when you wake up. She sat back on her haunches before lowering the rest of her body to the ground, the stall filled with the sweet smell of herbs.
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think.
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06-11-2013, 05:20 PM
With a smile Loccian watched the pup sniff at the meals she had brought back, determining which one she would choose. While waiting, the shewolf crossed a leg over the other, laying her head over her paws. The girl chose the bird, and so, Loccian pulled a paw out from under her to reach out and pull the squirrel close to her but would not yet eat it.
I don't wanna force you Reficul, but if you would like, you can call me Loccian until your comfortable enough to call me mom. She spoke softly, nervousness in her voice. Grey eyes watched the pup for a reaction to her comment, waiting to see if it would bother the young girl at all which she didn't want to happen. Loccian wanted the girl to go at her own pace with things, not be rushed, get comfortable first. I don't want you to think I am trying to replace your mother, I will never be able to. I am here to help, take you in as my own. To become your second mother. She added one, hoping this wasn't too much for the pup and made sense. She wanted her to know that Loccian wasn't trying to replace Ref's mother, she never would be able to, she was just trying to become like another one that would watch over her.
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talk.
think.
you."
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