She was an idiot. A freaking idiot. Why had she left the safety of Secretua?! Well of course Akemi knew the reason, but when she was so close to her birthing time she shouldn't have dared risk it. But Akemi had hoped, against odds, she might be able to find her sister out here again. But no, she hadn't, and on top of that the damn children decided NOW was the perfect time to try coming into the world.

She had tried to make it back to Secretua, fighting against the pains of the contractions, trying to ignore the smell of her own blood. But she was getting nowhere. She was in the middle of nowhere, vulnerable, open... and... and Akemi was honestly a bit scared.

When one could fight back it was one thing sure enough. But like this? She was at risk of any sort of attack. On top of that, well, a rather persistent fox seemed to be following her. The small wolfess just thanked the gods she left Tiny back at the packlands, hidden in her den. But... would she ever see her adopted son again?

Finally, unable to go no further, the female crawled under a bush and laid down. The pain was immense, and no doubt by trying to force herself to keep moving home when it started did little to help. Her mind was hazy, her mouth dry. She felt like she was going to be sick. This... this was so bad. She could die here and it could take days for someone to find her body.

How much time passed before her firstborn was expelled from her body? Minutes? An hour? Her mind was so fuzzy. There was blood, so much blood, and she fought to keep conscious as she tried to clean the small body. Weak as she was... she could not have fought off the predator that took it's chance in that moment. Her firstborn son, marked with cream, brown, and white, was snatched from under her very muzzle, a cry leaving her lips as her single orb watched it dash into the undergrowth. It was too late... her baby was gone.

'No...' Even if the child had been or rape it had been her own. It had been her baby... and seeing him... had filled her heart with a bit of warmth. Some sort of happiness and hope... and then... it was just ripped away from her. Her body trembled, a quiet sob passing her lips. The girl swallowed hard, knowing she couldn't do this alone. Even if she died... someone had to help her babies. Akemi would tip her head back, giving a pitiful howl for help. Someone... someone please... help her.

Ooc:: Please note, the first baby is Shiki. Was already claimed by Kau in the "My Prize" thread so can't be rescued. Thanks.





talk, think

Freyr's light blue gaze was scared as he waited for his sister, glancing at Tiny a few times. On top of his fear, and pain, the golden and black male felt guilt. He was supposed to be her guardian, or he thought that was his title at the moment. With another glance at Tiny, Freyr picked the tiny creature up, his ice blue eyes soft as he placed Akemi's adopted son on the thick fur around his neck. Hopefully, the male would be able to cling to him, because Akemi would kill him if he lost the little thing. Lowering his head, Freyr scented her, and hesitated, scenting for blood, before walking forwards, still following his sister's scent. After a while of following her scent, Freyr scented blood, and began to follow her scent at a trot, before he spotted her. Like the time after she was attacked, Akemi was under a bush. He had not heard her howl, but, as he moved closer, sticking his head under the bush, he saw the blood. There was so much blood, and Freyr twitched his ear, moving under the bush so he was next to her, a soft sigh escaping his jaws. "Akemi......Are you okay?" His blue eyes were full of concern, and he nuzzled her, hoping she would be alright. Then, the force of what he said hit him; of course she wasn't alright, she was hurt! Or something was wrong with her, because she wouldn't be bleeding if nothing was wrong with the small female. Freyr finally managed to speak again, trying to remember what the healers had said when the others were giving birth. "Alright.......Akemi, try and breath in and out as slow as you can. And...... Try and relax if you can, alright? I'll.....I'll get a healer." He tried to relax, but he looked down and saw the blood again, fear making him shake. Trying to calm his trembling, he raised his head. His jaws parted in a howl, and he sat next to Akemi. Someone had to help; he couldn't do anything, he wasn't a healer, and Akemi was in too much pain. "Hear Me Talk," 'Read My Thoughts.'

ooc: doing this super quick before I leave, sorry for shortness ><

Quiet and cautious, Shilah stepped lightly through the terra. He'd finally made it free of D?gmar. Apparently the femme had grown bored with him and at last he was able to sneak away but it still meant he was on high alert. Would she come back for him? Were there others that would see him as an asset to be taken be force? Blood. Shilah froze at the familiar smell of blood and also of birthing. It was then he heard the distressing howls and the young male bolted toward the call. He was shaken by his earlier experiences yes but that would not cause him to shy away from those in need. Shilah came upon a young female and young male and pups. "I'm a healer. Will you let me help you?" It was a silly question he supposed, they had howled after all but wolves could be cagey creatures when stressed and Shilah had been bitten before by not making his intentions immediately known. After all there was the risk that darker creatures could answer and flock to the distressing pair like vultures. Speech

Walk | Talk | Think Though he had been keeping a distance from the sibling pair that he had accepted into Secretua, Rune had still been keeping an eye on them. Akemi seemed content to roam the pack lands and get acquainted with her new home while Freyr appeared very much to be something like a second shadow to the woman, hardly doing much solo exploration or even trying to mingle with those of the pack. Maybe they were having a harder time adjusting given that the female was pregnant. It was an unfortunate turn of events that had led to that, and he did not know the extent of her own personal healing from it and feared pressing them both further than they were willing to go. Today was different, however. Neither had been spotted throughout the territory, and neither appeared to be anywhere near their den. Considering Akemi had been growing closer and closer to her delivery date it did not seem to be good timing at all. Rune had searched the borders, searched for a scent, and found that of Freyr first and foremost. It led beyond the pack's borders and with a growl in his throat he followed after it into the wilds beyond Secretua, wondering where in the hell they had gone at a time like this. What he found was, as far as he was concerned, chaos. Blood preceded his finding them, and it was not simply Akemi and Freyr that he came upon but a rogue as well. All three were gathered about the shrub the mother-to-be had curled up beneath, and as he came to stop nearby Rune stifled an irritated growl. But with pups on the way, what did he even say to the distracted mother? To Freyr who was busy consoling her and talking her through what was happening? To the rogue who appeared to be a concerned healer? Of them all, he was likely the least qualified to be here, but considering they were all out in unclaimed territory maybe he did have a purpose after all. With a warning look to the rogue male, simply to dissuade any untoward thoughts, Rune turned his back on the trio and set his stern gaze about them, standing guard while the rest focused on birthing the pups.

Tiny would squeak with worry when finally he and Freyr reached Akemi, the pygmy jerboa climbing carefully down the golden form of the male and scurrying across the ground to the wolfess he saw as his mother. ?Mama! Mama! You have to be okay!? He?d move onto her paw, his beady eyes shining with worry. Her head was spinning and throbbing all at once. She was fighting off that darkness that wanted to drag her in. Akemi was convinced if she lost consciousness now she wasn?t waking in this world again. ?F-Freyr...? The smell of her own blood was making her stomach churn all the more. Gods help her... She... She didn?t want to die. ?Trying...? She would whine softly, both in response to Tiny and her brother. At least now she wasn?t alone. Her brother couldn?t help her... He had no healing knowledge, and Tiny certainly could not. But she wasn?t alone... And that was enough for her to keep fighting just a bit harder. It seemed too, thank the gods, that a healer would swiftly respond to the call. She?d lift her head, her single orb falling on the male. He was a healer, asking for permission to help. ?Yes... please...? She?d lower her head again, blinking her single remaining orb several times, as if trying to beat back the darkness with each blink. ?Think... I think the pup is stuck... Too... Big...? No kidding. If Akemi had any idea she was trying to expel a pup that would be bulkier than even his father when he was fully grown she probably would have had a heart attack. Her mind couldn?t focus on that though, her voice getting quieter, her mind trying to shut down. ?Hard... To stay... Awake...? The words slurred some as she tried to lift her head, fighting with all the strength she could. Would she luck out again with a loner as a healer? Had she not been so out of if she might have noticed Rune's approach as well.Thank the gods... thank the gods she wasn't alone. "Hear Me Talk," 'Read My Thoughts,' "Listen To Tiny."

ooc:  sorry if its a bit rushed
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Shilah heard the squeaking of some small creature but he let it pass, his ears straining for the words of the femme.  He did not want to touch her anywhere sensitive without her permission but then she spoke and gave him the go ahead.  She was obviously in a lot of pain and weak.  Was the pup too big?  It was certainly possible she was such a small femme.

"I know it must be hard but stay with me alright… you and your pups will be fine."  Shilah's attention stirred away from the laboring woman just enough to noticed the large grey male that approached but his manner seemed calm and non-threatening so Shilah continued his work.  "Keep her calm, I'll be back momentarily"  Thankfully he'd been dwelling in the are and had a small supply of herbs in his temporary densite.  Nose riffled through his stockpile, gem-colored eyes intent until he found what he was looking for.

Chewing the herbs he moved to the front of the mother.  "Here, injest this…"  A combination of motherwort to help with the contractions, and just a touch of well chewed valerian root.  Moving around behind her he spoke again.  "I'm going to apply some medicine to ease the bleeding and inflammation then I'm going to give the pup a good tug."  He set about chewing the remainder of the herbs, a healthy dose of yarrow before licking and spreading it around the pup.  "Alright on the count of three I need you to push!  One…. two…" fangs seized the pup and he leaned back and pulled, head twisting to the right as the squirming creature emerged with a pop and a cry.  Gently Shilah moved to place the pup at the mothers side, his own tongue moving quickly to clean the creature off in case the mother was too weak to do so.  Patiently he moved behind her and laid down, waiting to see if there would be any more contractions.

Akemi would give the smallest of nods in agreement. She would fight to stay conscious... Stay alive... For her and her children. While the healer departed to get his herbs Akemi would try to focus on her brother, her body shaking. This was the moment she had worried for and yet... Yet she hadn’t tried to take the herbs that would allow her to miscarry. She knew that this could happen, that these children were of a bastard... Yet... Perhaps some small part of her actually wanted them? The chance to be the sort of parent hers never were... To show love... And feel love... In a bond that was different from others.

She would turn her head to the healer as he returned, blinking as she fought back against her body’s desire to give in. She would take the herbs a bit awkwardly into her mouth, silently taking them as the man moved behind her to assist with the childbirth. She said nothing, focusing what energy she had on making sure that she got these pups out. On his singly she would push, feeling the creature leave her body with a cry. It was alive... And when she glanced at it... the ‘pup’ hardly seemed like a newborn. It looked like it should have already been growing for a couple of months already. She gave birth that that!?

Motherly instinct would urge her to clean the child, but she hardly got in a few licks before laying her head down, panting. The healer luckily took care of the job, her body still moving with contractions. Akemi wanted to sleep... To rest... But there was still something within her. Her body would shift, making the effort to push on her own best she could. Luckily the last child would come out without the same complications as her brother, being much smaller and her brother making his exit first helped with that. After that the female closed her eye, breathing hard. She never, ever wanted to do this again...