i wont wear you down
05-13-2019, 03:45 PM
While she would have really preferred to stay curled up in her den for the rest of the summer the girl found herself too restless for that. Ballad spent a lot of time pacing the border of Legion to release some of her frustrated energy, but even that had not been enough. She allowed herself to go out into the world, to follow her brother’s example. The young Pyre girl sought to commune with the Volcano. She held its markings on her soft fur, surely she would find some answers if she looked there.
She huffed heavily, feeling the effects of her season weigh on her after the length of her journey. At this point the girl was half way up the mountain, and had found no answers at all. Fiery paws brought her to a ledge that looked out over the vast lands below. Her silvery gaze passed over different landmarks as she felt small when compared to everything she looked out over. Ballad was forced to feel overwhelmed again, her whole life was gone overnight, she was lost.
She always felt on edge, a tingling feeling helped none by the changes her body undertook with summer’s arrival. Her ember marked tail lashed out behind her as she lowered her dark haunches to the rocky earth. Erratic emotions bubbled up beneath her so she never knew if she wanted to cry or scream or hide. She wished desperately her memories would return to her, surely everything would be better if she could just remember.
She huffed heavily, feeling the effects of her season weigh on her after the length of her journey. At this point the girl was half way up the mountain, and had found no answers at all. Fiery paws brought her to a ledge that looked out over the vast lands below. Her silvery gaze passed over different landmarks as she felt small when compared to everything she looked out over. Ballad was forced to feel overwhelmed again, her whole life was gone overnight, she was lost.
She always felt on edge, a tingling feeling helped none by the changes her body undertook with summer’s arrival. Her ember marked tail lashed out behind her as she lowered her dark haunches to the rocky earth. Erratic emotions bubbled up beneath her so she never knew if she wanted to cry or scream or hide. She wished desperately her memories would return to her, surely everything would be better if she could just remember.
![Where My Demons Hide](https://cdn.discordapp.com/attachments/448183316005257228/560511525987680267/ballad-sig.png)
05-13-2019, 07:08 PM
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05-15-2019, 09:25 AM
Like the rest of those raised up in her culture Ballad’s emotions remained carefully hidden away in the gentle signing of her paws. Sculpted features remained blank despite the turmoil that lingered beneath the surface. She hadn’t been able to shake the feeling of loss and confusion that lingered in the dark cloud above her. Even in the heat of the summer sun she felt like she was in the pouring rain.
The heat had begun to affect her, however. The bright sun beat down on her black coat and made her retreat. Ballad turned to seek out a bit of shade until high noon settled into evening when she was confronted with another wolf. He was huge, towering above her and challenging even Chaos’ massive form. He had to have been about her own age, and his face was much more innocent than the fanged alpha’s as well.
She knew she was trained as a warrior, she had the skills even if she didn’t know it. She had no reason to be afraid but she couldn’t help herself as she curled inwardly. She wanted Lament to be here to protect her. Still her features remained blank, but her paws fidgeted beneath her as she expressed her emotion Uncertainty, fear, curiosity. She watched him carefully from beneath her silver gaze.
”Hello,” the girl answered back politely. Her safety was likely not in danger, if he had wished her ill he would have been able to take her by surprise if he saw fit. ”Can I… help you?” She didn’t want to seem rude, and he looked like he might have had something important to tell her.
The heat had begun to affect her, however. The bright sun beat down on her black coat and made her retreat. Ballad turned to seek out a bit of shade until high noon settled into evening when she was confronted with another wolf. He was huge, towering above her and challenging even Chaos’ massive form. He had to have been about her own age, and his face was much more innocent than the fanged alpha’s as well.
She knew she was trained as a warrior, she had the skills even if she didn’t know it. She had no reason to be afraid but she couldn’t help herself as she curled inwardly. She wanted Lament to be here to protect her. Still her features remained blank, but her paws fidgeted beneath her as she expressed her emotion Uncertainty, fear, curiosity. She watched him carefully from beneath her silver gaze.
”Hello,” the girl answered back politely. Her safety was likely not in danger, if he had wished her ill he would have been able to take her by surprise if he saw fit. ”Can I… help you?” She didn’t want to seem rude, and he looked like he might have had something important to tell her.
![Where My Demons Hide](https://cdn.discordapp.com/attachments/448183316005257228/560511525987680267/ballad-sig.png)
05-20-2019, 08:22 PM
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05-22-2019, 05:43 PM
He seemed confident..ish as he walked towards her, his head tilted curiously as she asked her question. Hesitation obvious as he formulated his response, Ballad managed to keep her expression neutral. Her paws shifted in the signs that could be read by only Lament and other Ademre. ”Uh, no.” He answered and stumbled over his words, Ballad’s liquid silver eyes wouldn’t leave him. If she didn’t feel kind of sorry for him she might have let a chuckle escape her, but he wasn’t meaning to be her entertainment.
She wasn’t sure if he had uttered a full sentence when he finally just quit while he was mostly ahead. ”Oh,” she replied, unsure how to respond. She had said hello, and so had he. ”Hello again.” She decided to say as she continued to watch him with her blank stare. The more she watched the more she learned about the way his muscles moved beneath his pelt or how he shrugged off the nervousness that seemed to take him.
Before the summer started she might not have understood the nervousness, but she felt oddly shy in his presence as well. Ballad couldn’t argue he seemed innocent enough, and having his attention made her feel.. good. Good, she decided, unable to come up with another word to describe the fluttery butterflies in her belly.
She wasn’t sure if he had uttered a full sentence when he finally just quit while he was mostly ahead. ”Oh,” she replied, unsure how to respond. She had said hello, and so had he. ”Hello again.” She decided to say as she continued to watch him with her blank stare. The more she watched the more she learned about the way his muscles moved beneath his pelt or how he shrugged off the nervousness that seemed to take him.
Before the summer started she might not have understood the nervousness, but she felt oddly shy in his presence as well. Ballad couldn’t argue he seemed innocent enough, and having his attention made her feel.. good. Good, she decided, unable to come up with another word to describe the fluttery butterflies in her belly.
![Where My Demons Hide](https://cdn.discordapp.com/attachments/448183316005257228/560511525987680267/ballad-sig.png)
05-25-2019, 04:44 PM
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05-27-2019, 09:33 PM
His awkward exterior didn’t lessen as she replied to him, but the girl didn’t know how to respond anyway. She wasn’t practiced in talking to those outside of Lament, and with her dejected state she didn’t have much topic for conversation anyway. Ballad was a mess, not that she could remember how she was before. She just knew that this was not how she was supposed to be. Uncertainty, curiosity, interest. She signed softly, knowing this stranger likely couldn’t understand her fidgeting like signals.
He gave her a name, Corvus, as he asked of her origins. He seemed optimistic despite how their conversation had gone so far. ”I’m Ballad Pyre.” She offered, her tones silky if not tinged with a sadness she couldn’t quite rid. ”I.. don’t think so.” She was prepared to explain her situation to him, he seemed interested enough. ”I’m staying in Legion with my brother right now,” Now that he’d asked the right question she was a fountain of information comparatively. ”We lost our memories, and I couldn’t tell you where we are really from.” Her paws signed absently of loss and pain but her voice remained almost neutral.
He gave her a name, Corvus, as he asked of her origins. He seemed optimistic despite how their conversation had gone so far. ”I’m Ballad Pyre.” She offered, her tones silky if not tinged with a sadness she couldn’t quite rid. ”I.. don’t think so.” She was prepared to explain her situation to him, he seemed interested enough. ”I’m staying in Legion with my brother right now,” Now that he’d asked the right question she was a fountain of information comparatively. ”We lost our memories, and I couldn’t tell you where we are really from.” Her paws signed absently of loss and pain but her voice remained almost neutral.
![Where My Demons Hide](https://cdn.discordapp.com/attachments/448183316005257228/560511525987680267/ballad-sig.png)
05-30-2019, 10:23 AM
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06-02-2019, 07:53 PM
(This post was last modified: 06-12-2019, 11:56 AM by Ballad I.)
She couldn’t help but watch him approach with her intent silver gaze. His large form towered above her own small frame but Ballad didn’t flinch. She felt herself become a little shy at how close he was, the butterflies in her belly growing stronger. Ballad shifted with her own internal discomfort, both wanting him closer and farther away for different reasons. She explained herself and he followed up with a question as a look of disbelief fell over him. "Do you not remember... anything at all?" Had she allowed herself to show emotions in her face Ballad might have looked ashamed. Corvus apologized as soon as he said it though, as though he could tell her feelings.
Ballad took a deep breath, he seemed interested and she wanted to explain herself. ”Well, not everything.” She started, signing nervously with her left paw. ”I knew my name, and my brothers name. I know how to fight… but everything before the moment i woke up is gone.” Words for mourning and sadness were signed as her gaze fell to the ground. ”Not knowing who I am has been… Terrifying.” The girl’s words were a soft whisper as her toes trailed in the dirt at her paws. She didn’t know why she was being so upfront with him, but he’d been polite and seemed to care about what she said.
Ballad took a deep breath, he seemed interested and she wanted to explain herself. ”Well, not everything.” She started, signing nervously with her left paw. ”I knew my name, and my brothers name. I know how to fight… but everything before the moment i woke up is gone.” Words for mourning and sadness were signed as her gaze fell to the ground. ”Not knowing who I am has been… Terrifying.” The girl’s words were a soft whisper as her toes trailed in the dirt at her paws. She didn’t know why she was being so upfront with him, but he’d been polite and seemed to care about what she said.
![Where My Demons Hide](https://cdn.discordapp.com/attachments/448183316005257228/560511525987680267/ballad-sig.png)
06-09-2019, 08:45 AM
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06-12-2019, 12:05 PM
Being able to talk to someone other than Lament or Rhythm about what she was experiencing felt oddly freeing. Corvus seemed like he could be categorized in the nice guy corner, he was respectful of her space, though quite focused on his words. He offered her sympathy as well as looking at a bright side. At least she had Lament. Corvus was right, it hurt to think how lost she would be had he not been there when she awoke. She nodded softly,not wanting to vocalize how much he supported her.
”He’s my rock.” Her voice was softer now that the distance between them had closed. His large earthen form feeling more like a comfort as the moments together passed. She studied him with quicksilver gaze for just a moment before she spoke, acutely aware of how one sided the conversation had been. ”Do you live around here, Corvus?” She liked the way his name felt on her tongue as she repeated his question to her.
”He’s my rock.” Her voice was softer now that the distance between them had closed. His large earthen form feeling more like a comfort as the moments together passed. She studied him with quicksilver gaze for just a moment before she spoke, acutely aware of how one sided the conversation had been. ”Do you live around here, Corvus?” She liked the way his name felt on her tongue as she repeated his question to her.
![Where My Demons Hide](https://cdn.discordapp.com/attachments/448183316005257228/560511525987680267/ballad-sig.png)
06-16-2019, 01:12 PM
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06-18-2019, 08:22 AM
Ballad was desperate to fill in the blank of her memory, already flashes of different times teased her right before bed or when she was waking up. Nothing definitive came back though. Lament was her whole world, the majority of her memories. He was comfort and support, two things she felt she needed as much as her memories with everything being so unstable. She was so uncertain, and that made her afraid.
Corvus nodded in comisery and gave her a soft smile as his huge form shifted and found a seat just a little closer. Ballad took in a deep breath and summoned he bravery. So far she liked Corvus, and the fluttery feeling he gave her. He seemed like he was a sweet guy, and wasn’t as intimidating as trying to talk to the wolves of Legion. Ballad’s flame colored paws carried her next to the Abaven boy’s side. She coiled her legs as she sat herself beside him and pulled her ember fleckecked tail around her paws and looked in the direction he faced.
Though from here she couldn’t make up the wolf made borders she couldn’t deny that Abaven seemed very green. She might have liked the area, and one day she might explore there. As soon as she got her memories back. ”That sounds like me and, Heart.” She gasped at the name that slipped from her lips. Where and what was Heart? ”Does that place sound familiar to you?” She asked with too much eagerness on her voice. She had a memory, but no way to use it. What did it mean?
Corvus nodded in comisery and gave her a soft smile as his huge form shifted and found a seat just a little closer. Ballad took in a deep breath and summoned he bravery. So far she liked Corvus, and the fluttery feeling he gave her. He seemed like he was a sweet guy, and wasn’t as intimidating as trying to talk to the wolves of Legion. Ballad’s flame colored paws carried her next to the Abaven boy’s side. She coiled her legs as she sat herself beside him and pulled her ember fleckecked tail around her paws and looked in the direction he faced.
Though from here she couldn’t make up the wolf made borders she couldn’t deny that Abaven seemed very green. She might have liked the area, and one day she might explore there. As soon as she got her memories back. ”That sounds like me and, Heart.” She gasped at the name that slipped from her lips. Where and what was Heart? ”Does that place sound familiar to you?” She asked with too much eagerness on her voice. She had a memory, but no way to use it. What did it mean?
![Where My Demons Hide](https://cdn.discordapp.com/attachments/448183316005257228/560511525987680267/ballad-sig.png)
06-22-2019, 09:54 AM
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07-02-2019, 08:05 AM
Ballad was forced into a state of timidness by the loss of her memory. She couldn’t know how confident a she wolf she had been because of her loss. She couldn’t picture her homeland or her mother. None of her fellow apprentices appeared. She was lost and she felt very alone. Only Lament understood, however much sympathy Corvus was able to offer her. She managed to pull a subtle smile from his lips as she moved closer, and Ballad felt herself becoming more comfortable with him.
His green eyes shifted from her and back to the direction of the land that he called home and Balled felt herself sigh internally. She wished she could know the direction of home. Legion wouldn’t ever have the same feeling even with Chaos’s kindness. ”I think it could be. I don’t know what other significance it might have. Maybe.. Maybe Lament might recognize it when I say it. He didn’t know my name until it fell from my lips.” She told him as her paws spelled out her uncertain emotions. ”I still can’t shake the feeling someone did this to us on purpose.” She admitted quietly.
His green eyes shifted from her and back to the direction of the land that he called home and Balled felt herself sigh internally. She wished she could know the direction of home. Legion wouldn’t ever have the same feeling even with Chaos’s kindness. ”I think it could be. I don’t know what other significance it might have. Maybe.. Maybe Lament might recognize it when I say it. He didn’t know my name until it fell from my lips.” She told him as her paws spelled out her uncertain emotions. ”I still can’t shake the feeling someone did this to us on purpose.” She admitted quietly.
![Where My Demons Hide](https://cdn.discordapp.com/attachments/448183316005257228/560511525987680267/ballad-sig.png)
07-09-2019, 08:12 AM
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07-16-2019, 10:35 AM
Corvus was as helpful as he could be as she started to admit more deeply what she felt and memories she had supressed. Her gaze grew distant as so many thoughts ran through her head. She was sure there were scenes from her past but no context and no meaning. She sighed softly, her face oddly blank as her paws signed out emotions of confusion and defeat. Their conversation came to a close as Corvus mentioned his need to return to his pack. Her attention was brought back to him as he motioned towards Abaven once more and invited her there for.. anything. She cheered a little, her ears perked and the corners of her lips pulled up into a quick smile. ”Hopefully,” she offered back honestly. ”Safe travels, Corvus.” Ballad remained sitting as he disappeared into the scenery. The Ademre girl returned her gaze to her paws, only having more questions as she was to leave the mountain.
![Where My Demons Hide](https://cdn.discordapp.com/attachments/448183316005257228/560511525987680267/ballad-sig.png)