dreams of tomorrow
03-23-2014, 11:15 PM
She wanted to be alone.
For the first time in her life she honest to god wanted to be alone. Maybe that was why she had sot shelter within the secluded bay near the beginning of the summer, even though she hadn't felt anti social then something about this area spoke to her. But now she was two, the year of her birth season and she was beginning to discover what exactly that meant. The breeze off the ocean hid her scent well enough, plus the summer made her just want to lounge on the beach and soak in the waters. This place was just perfect, secluded and quiet. Plus there was an island just off the coast that eventually she would love to visit. One day a few weeks back she had seen it on an especially clear day and had taken a swim out there only to discover the most beautiful place on earth. It was where she normally hunted and hung out but a small part of her still lingered on the mainland. Ever since she had fled Glaciem during her meeting with the leader she had regretted not going back for Talon.
She was laying easily in the shallows of the ocean, relaxing against the feel of the the water pushing and pulling against her body. Forepaws were arched and clenched into the sand, preventing the slight tide from pushing her into shore or pulling her further out to sea. She had just gotten back from a swim to the island to get some food and now she just wanted to relax. But in her relaxing there was little to do other then loose herself in her thoughts. And as with all times she drifted into her own mind she couldn't help but think of him. Was he still alive? Of all the people she had met in her short life there were none that had left an impact on her life like Talon had. Prospero was the one who had started her on the path that had lead her to him and though she missed her adoptive dad who had helped her through her early years she missed Talon more.
She stretched out a bit more, forelegs pulling herself forward so her hind legs just kind of drifted out behind her until she dragged herself half out of the water and was laying stretched out. Head lowered, flopping down on the sand lazily as jaws stretched open in a yawn. Yeah? She missed him? Missed having someone to talk to and cuddle with and just be around. She missed having some stability in her life. Sure she had met lots of new wolves and most of them had been great but no one quite measured up to a childhood friend. "Stupid girl? Shoulda just stayed in the pack and dealt with it?" She grumbled, wiggling so she rolled onto her back and flopped over with legs sprawling all over the place and forepaws lifting to rub at her face. "Stupid girl?" She grumbled one more time before flopping her head back and closing her eyes, letting the sting of the salt water settle in.
ooc;; sorry it's kinda scatter brained, gotta figured out her character again
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03-24-2014, 08:13 AM
It was strange how two wolves so similar in just about everything somehow happened to be almost exact opposites in everything else. Kangi had started off her life fairly early on alone, tragedy stealing her mother away from her and tipping the youngsters life upside down. Though she had mourned her mother she realized that of that hadn't happened she wouldn't have met Prospero or Talon or Nuka or any of the other wonderful wolves she had come across. Her thoughts often drifted back to her mother but she had none of the abandonment issues Talon struggled with. Even Prospero's sudden and abrupt departure had left her saddened for a short time but in the end she knew everything happened for a reason. That was how she liked living her life if at all possible, without regrets. But this one was hanging around her neck like a noose. She hadn't felt this bad about parting ways with anyone else. But maybe that was because for the first time in her life it was she who had ran, fled the pale ice king and his kingdom and at the same time leaving her best friend in the dust. She hadn't even gathered the courage to go back and see if she could find him. He was better off there after all, he wanted to be in a pack and the lady looking after him there seemed to truest care for him.
She should have gone back. Before she had terrified herself at her promise to join his pack she had made a conscious effort to see Talon at least once a season even if sometimes she had been unable to track down her friend. The time he had left Seracia with his other friend had been the last time she had been consciously worried that she would never see him again, having lost his scent and his trail. But as fate would have it it seemed Alacrita wasn't as big as she had worried and they had found eachother by chance. Now... She didn't want to be found, didn't really want to face the shame and guilt she felt over having disappeared without a word. She remembered the heartbreak he had endured when his mother had disappeared, his father having gone long before his birth she vaguely remembered. Now she was just a bitch who had added to that heartbreak. Would he forget her? Hate or and spit on her name every time it crossed his mind? She wouldn't have blamed him if he had and yet with all her heart she hoped that wasn't how it was for him. She hoped that maybe one day they would meet again and play and prance like the had so many times before then part ways friends once more. Though the leaving was getting harder and harder for her. She didn't really want to leave him but his pack terrified her.
Maybe he would come to her island? Maybe there were better packs around? There were so many options that they could have explored together and yet here he was alone, not even sure if she could find him if she wanted to. Golden eyes blinked open, head tipped back so all she could see was the rocks surrounding her little beach and the slightly cloudy sky above. It wasn't getting late but the sun was hitting the clouds and lighting them on fire like it did at sunset often. Here it was simply a normal occurance. Then like something out of a dream he would appear, and though she did not recognize his face at first from the distance it was hard to miss the missing limb that burdened him. She couldn't move, waiting for herself to wake up and yet praying that it wasn't the dream she thought it was. He couldn't really be here could he? And yet a bark would crack through the air around her, a tentative greeting and slowly the tiny woman would roll onto her stomach, eyes wide and jaw hanging on its hinge in disbelief. He was here?!?!? No emotion touched her features not for lack of them but due to her inability to even grasp what she was feeling at that moment. There was some panic, guilt, sorrow but almost overwhelming that all there was that elated joy she had always felt in his presence.
But unlike all their meeting before she held herself in check, not allowing herself to run at him and throw herself into his embrace. She didn't deserve that. So instead she would pushed herself up into a seated position, slowly like a hunter worried about scaring off her prey, and then finally lifting her haunches so she was standing completely. "Talon...?" there was an obvious hesitance and uncertainty in her voice as she breathed his name, not even sure if she was saying it to him or if she was still trying to decide if he was real or not. A few tentative steps were taken forward, long legs beginning to close the distance between them as she allowed her eyes to explore his form. He looked good. "What are you doing here? Your far from your pack. Won't your king be displeased?" She couldn't even look at him, couldn't bring herself to face him fully if this was truly him. But even as she said the words she knew the long was always displeased with Talon. The very thing she had come to love most about him he had hated, thought it was a burden on him and the pack. "I'm so sorry for leaving..." She could barely whisper the words, now standing just beyond touching distance of him, tail lowered and ears tipped back in shame. That was all that mattered. She had left him and she had run, he had never done anything wrong.
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