The early morning came too easy fro the male. What was hard was the small trance spell he had been in during the night due to a panic attack that he didn't think he would have. Hajime hadn't asked or yelled out for help, so this morning where he was at was in the middle of one of the valleys of the territory digging holes in the ground. Just to ease his nerves really. There were three small ones dug around him. His red eyes looking down until he decided to walk along the rim of the valley. He hadn't had time to explore the territory since he was accepted. Entirely though he had already heard about the new beta. Newt, a dark woman as she had heard she was. He didn't think she would have time to meet him either. At the moment Hajime had other things on his mind. After last night, he had close to no energy, but he wanted to be hyper and to be doing something productive. The boy could have been helping mark the borders, but he didn't see that as a job he needed to do unless he was to be accepting members. Just as he stopped at the edge of the rocky valley he blinked his eyes and tried to shake the feeling of his panic attack away. The main question was what had made him have it? Well it could have been the nightmare that he had. There were so many questions unanswered in the boys head, it wasn't even funny when he thought about it. Hajime hadn't really done much in his life, but he could only think about the amount of pain his mother had gone through. It made him want to cry, again, for the hours ahead in the day. Rivaxorus was a lady of strength and power, but she had lost everything before she went to Seracia. That included him and his uncle. Hajime had killed his only brother, and his foster grandfather had killed the wolf who raped Riv along with the newborn child that had come with her. Hajime didn't see why the small pup had to die, but when he witnessed that, it made him feel more and more like a killer every time he thought about Tanner. Tanner wasn't entirely evil, or at least he hadn't thought he was. Until he started to speak about his plans to kill Rivaxorus. Hajime's different colored ears flicked as he raised them. He took in a deep breath on the edge of where he was and held it in before letting it out. He had to calm down, if anyone caught him like this it wouldn't turn out well. The boy talked to himself slightly as he lowered his head towards his chest trying to calm himself down. Though one it didn't work, he pulled himself onto his stomach. Stretching out his limbs as he set his head down on the dirt. His life wasn't bad, but he didn't like to think of others in pain. Haji was afraid of making mistakes, of tripping up and never seeing faces again. It was at times like these he wished he knew his father. The man had died of disease, leaving Riv to raise him. He had heard the stories of Riv's father trying to kill her. But he just couldn't imagine someone wanted to kill their own child? With his uncle as well, what about his uncle. He had left him in the dust for some sort of sick game? Allen was probably worried sick, and it was his fault. Hajime just had it up to his chest in his thoughts. Maybe it was some sort of disease all on its own. Hajime spoke softly to himself, as he tried to calm himself. The boy rose to his paws, or at least attempted to. Everything around him was a bit dizzy, it was obvious that he'd be a bit groggy. But he had to stop thinking of such things. Hajime only wished someone was here to comfort him, no matter how he looked at it. He still had those small pup qualities in him. Even if he didn't he would wish for a friend of a lover to hold him close. Hajime closed his red eyes tight and shook his head nearly tripping over his own paws his tail flailing behind him to try and keep his balance. Hajime sucked in his breath to try and keep his balance. His ears cocked back as he hoped for his body to just work with him. He didn't want anyone looking after him if it meant causing them trouble. Hajime didn't ever want to cause anyone trouble. Speech,

His numbers were growing. He had three new members in the span of three days. Newt, the former queen of Tortuga now his beta. Hajime, the young man whom had chosen to be a warrior and Poppy, the young woman who had also chosen to be a warrior. It was only three wolves, but he didn't need to start panicking yet. He was barely starting out. More wolves would come. Alacritis always had a constant flow of rogues wandering in and sooner or later more would come wandering to his borders. He just had to be patient. His three current members seemed to be good ones. They all appeared to be trustworthy, even the former queen was willing to work with him to build up his pack. He was grateful that Newt had come back or else he wouldn't have a former ruler to fall back on for advice on anything ruling related. How many rulers here could have that in their disposal? He didn't think many did. So he was very greatful. The Cobalt King would wander through his home, just enjoying the fact that he longer had to listen to what his father said. In fact, the Ice King from the north wasn't even considered his blood anymore. Taurig didn't care much. Isardis hadn't acted like much of a father in the first place, so it wasn't like he was missing something crucial in his life to begin with. The titan was just fine being on his own with the man who was biologically his father. Powerful ebony limbs would pull the king through his territory, audits catching a familiar voice in the distance....Hajime? That was one of his warriors and it sounded like the man was in distress. Worried the titan would move towards the sound of his warrior, icy gaze coming across the man's disgruntled figure. Hajime? Are you okay? Taurig would edge closer, brows furrowing together in worry. What was going on with the man? Talk like this

Hajime? Are you okay? His ears perked to the sound of Taurig's voice. No, he couldn't see him like this. He couldn't ever have a leader look at him like he was in some sort of danger. The boy would be fine if he could recover that was. Otherwise he would pass out and sleep and then be alright when he woke. Though Hajime didn't know how to cover it up without passing out in front of the male if he really wanted that. He stood firmly, legs spread equally, tail up for balance. And fluffing his chest out towards Taurig. "I-I, Umm, I'm fine, just a bit woozy is all." He commented, blinking. Taurig was blurry, but he was holding his grip, or at least he was attempting to do so. Panic attacks, and dizzy spells were common for Hajime ever since he left his mothers side. He always thought if she knew what had happened, she would hate him. Hajime was afraid of everyone hating him even though he couldn't avoid one wolf or another from doing so. He sat himself down and sighed. He swore he was fine, he was wasn't he? "I think I'm fine." He spoke softly. There was a questioning tone in his voice though. Now that Taurig was here, he was calming down slightly. His mind was trying to wander. Speech,

Hajime, Poppy, Newt and any other wolf that decided to join his ranks would come under his care, which meant that even if they had just a case of the sniffles, the King would make his personal task to tend to them, even if he didn't know a single thing about herbs. They were coming to him because they wanted to have a home, a family and the cobalt king wasn't about to let them down. Unlike Glaciem, Tortuga would be a real home to all those that resided within it. It would be a close-knit group where everyone helped each other out and cared for one another, starting with the King himself and right now, Hajime seemed to be the one who needed his help and Taurig was more than willing to give it. He would watch with concern as the earthen man would sway on his paws, limbs splayed out around him as he tried to steady himself, swearing that he was just fine, that it was just a dizzy spell. From what he could see, that very well could've been the case, but the titan wasn't completely convinced that that was all that was the matter. Finally Hajime would give up on trying to stand, allowing himself to sit, a quiet sigh escaping his jaws as he rethought his previous statement, now not too sure that he was completely fine. You don't seem so fine to me Hajime...Is there something you need? Food? Water? Is there something else that's bothering you? Whatever he could do to help his members he would do, because that's just the type of man that he was. Talk like this

That was just the fact of it. He didn't need anything, there was always something, bothering him. Weather it was the death of his elder brother, or the murder at least. Or his choice to leave his mother and uncle's side because he felt like he was depending on them too much. Along with the fear he felt about what his mother would think of him, it plagued his heart deeply. His missing father, even more so, something that bothered him even though it shouldn't have. So when the man asked him, if he needed anything, his only answer could be to shake his head. Hajime was certain, that it would be like any other time, and he would just need some time to calm himself down. Weather or not he would ever recover from the frequent attacks, depended on his state of mind. Which could have been affected by his blood line, or what he could have known and lived in before he was born. He didn't understand his own feelings in this moment and time. He didn't know if he ever would. "It'll pass, I was trying to find a place to lay down. But it seems you found me first." Hajime mused pulling back his ears as he took in deep breaths. Breathing was important, otherwise he could lose his composure again and freak out. After a few minutes his tail flicking back and forth his red eyes starred at Taurig. "It's odd really, you remind me a lot of my mother. Really this world needs more wolves like you." Or maybe he just needed to stop running into the bad ones. It was like some sort of family curse. Them running into every single killer that one could think possible. Then being unable to protect what they cared most about. Or worry about how they would let them down. "I'm sorry Taurig, I have the habit of over thinking things. Lot's of times with any other wolves I've met tell me I'm beyond my years, but it's just a big show. My problems run deeper than most wolves would ever know." Hajime shook his head. He wasn't sure if opening up to Taurig was the right thing. It was a start though wasn't it. Speech,

Hajime seemed to stabilize a bit more as he sat down, the dizzy spell appearing to have passed. Had it been someone else, he supposed that they would've left if at that and continued on their way, without too much concern for what was really ailing the man. But the cobalt King wasn't just anyone. Powerful haunches would fold beneath the titan, allowing him to sit before the earthen man, scarred ears rotating forward with attention as he listed to Hajime speak, a bit of surprise taking hold of his dark features at the man's comment. It's odd really, you remind me a lot of my mother. Really this world needs more wolves like you. More wolves like him? Who stood up to bastards like the ice King or betrayed their packs as Glaciem saw him? He hoped it was the first option because traitors running rampant didn't sound like such a good idea. Well I'm honored you seem to hold me in such high esteem Hajime, it's very humbling. I haven't gotten a chance to know you very well, but I can tell that you're a good man and that in your time here in Tortuga you will flourish. Just you wait and see. A small smile would crease the King's inky lips, plume wagging gently behind him in agreement with his statement. He would hope that all his members flourished under his rule. He wanted his pack to become a real family, even if they weren't all blood related. The man would continue on, beginning to open up a little bit to the titan, revealing that there were things beneath the surface that no one would ever be the wiser about. There's no need to apologize Hajime, it's quite alright. If you ever need someone to talk to, I'm always here, just a call away. He wouldn't force anything out of the man that he wasn't willing to share on his own. Talk like this

Hajime let out a smile kind smile towards Taurig. He'd calmed down now, but he felt like it was one of those times he could share. Just was his mother would do, after and before her small depression spell. He sat himself straight red eyes glinting over the giant man. "When I first saw you I thought you were related to my father somehow." He laughed. "I never got to meet him, he died before I was born from some sort of sickness." Ears flicking he looked at the ground. The world was weird, and he could help but to feel sucked up into it. Hajime's tail moved from side to side as he returned his gaze up to Taurig. "I've done something bad in my past Taurig, and I don't know if god will ever forgive me." He said in simple lower tones. "I ran away from my mother, I was a coward and didn't want to own up to what I had done. The girl has gone through enough, without me murdering my elder brother. I was so afraid, he was going to kill her. So my uncle took me away. To this day I've been afraid of what she would think if she would know." Hajime shook his head, should he really be sharing this? "I have panic attacks a lot because of it. That and I'm afraid of the wolves who could cause the kind of damage they did to my mother. I hear stories of my father being a nice man, and yet my mothers father tried to rape and kill her. How could a wolf do that to their own child I just think." He gave a heavy sigh and looked up at Taurig. "I want to grow into a leader, I want to be able to know everyone around me is safe. Weather it be being an alpha or otherwise. I still want that. Just it plagues my mind constantly." Hajime looked at him straight in the eyes. Lowering his ears and giving a sigh. Speech,"Well at least I've started to feel comfortable here." Speech,