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Spider clutched to him for support, and he felt his will tremble. Spider was hurt and scared, but even as Strai recognised those emotions, he felt his anger rising. It hurt how much he cared. Somehow, without him realising, the list of people he'd bonded to had grown. He knew that if examined that list too closely, he would hyperventilate and he wasn't sure he would ever stop. 


He needed to cut Spider loose, before this got any worse. So he steeled himself, and he glared at them. "You don't get it! Seeing you get hurt… it was terrifying, and that means I care. I don't want to care, Spider. I've let this get too far, a-and this is the end!" He couldn't meet Spider's eyes. In fact, he couldn't even look at them. He didn't want to see how they were reaching to this.