RE: always an angel, never a god
08-17-2024, 10:29 AM
(TW: handling of stillborn pup)
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Jay was even less certain than Finch how she ought to be helping here. The two women had gone into labor practically at the same time - what were the odds of that?! - and she'd decided to accompany her sister, to be moral support if nothing else. It wasn't like she had any skills that would be practically useful, but she could do what was asked of her. Fetch supplies, maybe? Whatever they needed, she was willing to do.
She hadn't expected to be disposing of a stillborn pup, though.
The request had been thrust upon her swiftly, Thalia moving on to delivering the rest of her pups. Jay could not argue, as much as she wanted to. The whole thing happened quickly and she'd expected more of a reaction, but then again she knew Thalia had likely been focused on delivering the rest of her children safely. It wasn't like they were young mothers - this was hard on their bodies, and she knew any further stress would only complicate things.
She'd nodded obediently and taken the pup's lifeless body carefully in her jaws, slipping out of the dark barn and into the sunlight. Immediately she felt tears welling in her eyes, for this child she did not know and for its mother that she knew practically nothing of. Dispose of it, she'd been told matter-of-factly, though Jay didn't know quite what that meant. She couldn't just... leave it somewhere. That wouldn't be right.
Making her way slowly to her mother's grave site, without even realizing that was where she'd headed, she started digging a hole for the tiny thing. That was the only thing that seemed right to her. She fought back a sob as she worked at the soft soil, not having to dig very long at all before she'd made a hole big enough for the pup. Moving it gingerly into the grave, she took a long time to bury it, fighting back a sob practically the entire time. Not just for the pup, but for her mother, who she realized all at once she hadn't properly mourned over.
Once she was done she collapsed down on the ground, caked in dirt from her paws up to the joints of her legs, and cried and cried until she couldn't anymore.
JAY DESTRUCTION-MEMOIRE
She hadn't expected to be disposing of a stillborn pup, though.
The request had been thrust upon her swiftly, Thalia moving on to delivering the rest of her pups. Jay could not argue, as much as she wanted to. The whole thing happened quickly and she'd expected more of a reaction, but then again she knew Thalia had likely been focused on delivering the rest of her children safely. It wasn't like they were young mothers - this was hard on their bodies, and she knew any further stress would only complicate things.
She'd nodded obediently and taken the pup's lifeless body carefully in her jaws, slipping out of the dark barn and into the sunlight. Immediately she felt tears welling in her eyes, for this child she did not know and for its mother that she knew practically nothing of. Dispose of it, she'd been told matter-of-factly, though Jay didn't know quite what that meant. She couldn't just... leave it somewhere. That wouldn't be right.
Making her way slowly to her mother's grave site, without even realizing that was where she'd headed, she started digging a hole for the tiny thing. That was the only thing that seemed right to her. She fought back a sob as she worked at the soft soil, not having to dig very long at all before she'd made a hole big enough for the pup. Moving it gingerly into the grave, she took a long time to bury it, fighting back a sob practically the entire time. Not just for the pup, but for her mother, who she realized all at once she hadn't properly mourned over.
Once she was done she collapsed down on the ground, caked in dirt from her paws up to the joints of her legs, and cried and cried until she couldn't anymore.