Living hell

Jay · 12-23-2024, 03:26 PM

Though she initially flinched at the contact, she found herself comforted by the other woman's embrace. Being in the company of others had always calmed her. Her breathing still ragged, it seemed to slow slightly as she leaned into Empousa. She didn't feel quite like she was present though, even if the physical contact helped ground her. As she leaned into her Jay found herself zoning out, her eyes glazing over as she focused at a spot near her paws.

It was all she could do to focus on breathing at a normal rate so she didn't risk passing out.

Empousa kept speaking, trying to comfort her. "I don't- I can't-" Jay managed to choke out, a sob catching in her throat. Was she blaming herself? Of course she was, but those thoughts felt private somehow, not something she felt like sharing with anyone else. The burden of guilt was hers and hers alone, not a weight for someone else to carry.

The panic seemed to ebb to a crawl, still present but manageable now, after a few long moments of steadying herself and listening to Empousa. She wasn't wrong. Her father wouldn't want her to blame herself for this, even if did place any blame on her.

It didn't matter now, though, not with him gone, not with her mother gone, not with nearly all her siblings gone- swept away like a leaf on the wind.

Her chest felt heavy. A few final tears trailed down her cheeks as she managed to meet the other woman's gaze, at least for a moment before falling away again. "It's not fair," she managed finally. Abruptly she seemed to collect herself, sniffing hard and trying to straighten out her posture. "T-thank you for listening. I promise I'm not always so..." Jay gave a nondescript gesture with her paw, waving it toward herself. Still she felt numb, but at least the tightness in her chest was beginning to loosen, though it still hurt just the same.

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